Feeling like everything is lost.

The past few months every time Beth closed her eyes she would get panic attacks and have to check on the kids.

Alex kept telling her to relax. He had the new nanny checked out by Freddie. She was a top notch caregiver.

As the months went by she felt Alex pulling farther away from her. He stop trying to convince her to let the kids be and started coming home later and having secret conversations on the phone.

She felt like she was losing her life. Even her friends started to avoid her.

"Sky can you come over today. I need a friend to hang out with?" She called Sky her anniversary was in a few days and Alex was still not coming home at a decent hour.

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"Sky I feel like my life is falling apart."

"Why do you say that?"

"Alex doesn't spend as much time at home anymore and when he is here he really is not her."

"What are you thinking bunny."

"I think he regrets marrying me. I guess I really am unlovable." Tears started to form in her eyes.

Sky could not say anything about what was really going on. He did not want to ruin Alex's surprise but he could not let Beth feel hurt either.

"Alex loves you very much. Please believe me there is a good reason for his action lately just trust in him a little while longer."

"I'll try but I feel you are wrong, want to play awhile"

"Sure Prettybunnie this Rattatouilleknight will play with you."

They spent the day playing their online game. When Sky went home he called Alex.

"Hey, I just spent the day with your wife. She feels you no longer love her and regret marrying her. Do some bro before we have to spill the beans."

"Don't do that. It's almost time for our anniversary then she'll understand."

"I'm just tell you. She is really unhappy right now. Five days is a long time for a woman."

"I'll handle it."

They hung up. Five more days was not long. Sky and Julie move in in two days and the party is friday. Everything will be fine.

He was still busy everynight and Beth heart broke with out her husband beside her. So when her in laws took the kids and nanny on wednesday night and she was left alone she packed a bag and left a note for he family.

Dear Alex,

I know I am a broken mess and you are better off with out me. I leave the kids in your care. You did a great job raising AJ and I know with all your family around, James and Sarah will be better off with out me. Tell AJ to be a great big brother.

I promise not to bother you and I will send the lawyer my address from the divorce papers I don't want anything.

Love Elizabeth

She left it on the bedside table as she walked out and took a taxi to the train station. She would go to the next city over and start an online hacking company. Sky made good money with it and she was better then Sky.

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Alex got Julie all moved in and the kids were safe and sound with his mom at the main house. He would spend the night pampering his wife. He hated all the time he had to spend to get the new place ready but it would be worth it in the end.

He walked in and the place was very dark. He thought his wife had just went to bed early with the kids gone but when he went to the bedroom it was empty to. Thinking that she must be out shopping he tried her phone but heard it ring in the bedroom.

He walked in and picked up her phone and then seen the note. He picked it up and read it. He them slumped on the bed. Sky tried to warn him but she shrugged it off. His wife was gone.

He grabbed his phone and called Sky.

"Any idea where she went?" He asked Sky after telling her about the note.

"No, as soon as I have all my stuff set up I'll start looking. I told you Monday this was her mind set. She felt you no longer loved her so to make you happy she left."

"I know you told me but I never thought she would leave."

"I'll call when I get set up"

Alex did not know what to do. He sat there in a daze. She was all he thought about. He was working hard to give her a place were she felt safe. He forgot to make her fell loved.

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Beth was on the train to Citywide City. She watched as the train fell into darkness and the moon up in the sky lit the sky to her new life. She knew it was to good to hope for a family that would always need her. She had learned from a young age to only rely on herself.

Even growing up Nora Williams was the closest thing to a family she could get and even she had to leave. To this day her own mother wanted nothing to do with her.

The twins were better off with a real family and Mary and Alexander would provide them one. Sarah, Jack, Sky, and Julie would also look after her kids. They would never feel the pain she did growing up never feeling the love of others.

She closed her eyes to the sounds of the track, clitty clack, clitty clack as the train moved along she fell into a dreamless sleep.

Soon the conductor woke her up. "Miss this is your stop"

She stretched and thanked him. Got her luggage out of the bin and stepped off the train. The first thing she did was grab a paper to look for a place to stay.

She rented a locker to put her things in so she could take taxi to each listing. By four o'clock she finally found a place. She Had taken 8 thousand out of her account before leaving. She put down 800 on first and last month and 400 deposit. The apartment was fully finished. She went back to the train station to get her things.

Today was her Anniversary so she stopped to buy some wine and a burner phone.

'Sky, I know you'll check my messages so this it to let you know I am all right. I will get a hold of you in a few days online. Tell Alex not to worry I don't blame him. I know I am just not someone who can be loved.'

Sky was alerted as soon as she left a message but because he had taught her well her could not track her whereabouts.

Alex was beside himself with grief. How could he have made her feel unloved. It took him two months to set this all up and by neglecting her to get it done he pushed her away.