Chapter 21 - Jet

"How long is this going to take?" I asked crossing my arms watching Anya who was sitting in front of me drawing.

"I am almost done Jet, quit being a turd and sit still will ya. I want this to be perfect I only have a little bit of paper left so I need to do this right." Anya said seriously studying every inch of my face with her cheeks puckered in annoyance.

I have made several advances toward her but she ignores them or it could be she is clueless about my feelings towards her but I seriously doubt it.

I couldn't help get all flustered with her grey eyes on me like this. She is so cute when she is so focused. I also noticed a long time ago that she is different from the other females around here. She doesn't throw herself at wealthy men or cower at the terrifying thugs who come waltzing in here acting all bad ass but she does have this innocent aura surrounding her.

She speaks her mind, has a heart of gold, pure as can be, and she knows how to throw a punch when she needs to.

Just thinking about it is causing my dick to harden. I crossed my legs to keep her from seeing the bugle between my legs. I forced myself to calm my desires down and focused on the foods that I disliked, like peas and squash. Just thinking about those disgusting foods is making my nose wrinkle, ceasing my mind to slowly wander back to Anya.

I don't know how I am going to handle it when she goes back home. She has become a big part of my life, it's going to be almost impossible to let her go.

Part of me wishes for her to be happy and hopes she gets home safely but the other part of me wants her to never leave. Just thinking about her going home makes me what to lock her up and keep her by my side forever but I know I can't do that to her. I would never hurt her physically or emotionally. I was in my own little world daydreaming about my future with Anya when I caught her staring at me.

"Why are you smiling like that?" Anya asked with her head tilted to the side confused.

"I'm not smiling your imaging things." I said turning my head to the side irritated at myself for being caught. I tried my best to wipe the smile off my face when Anya jump up.

"And its done!" She shouted happily turning to the drawing toward me to see. It's suppose to be a drawing of me but it looks nothing like me.

"That doesn't even look anything like me." I said startled.

This man in the drawing is handsome, his eyes are soft full of life, and he looked. . happy. The total opposite of me. 'Is this how she sees me?'

"What are you talking about this is you, well it's the way I see you anyways." She said flipping the drawing back towards her.

"Beautiful from the inside and out." She said happily with one of her breathtaking smiles. I could feel my eyes go wide with shock replaying her words in my head. 'Did she just call me beautiful?' Realizing what she had said, her face slowly started to turn 50 shades of red.

"I-I didn't mean it like that! I-I mean you are good looking! No I didn't..." she shook her hands side to side then covered her mouth with her hands with shock written all over her face.

"I'm sorry for give me," And she took off running into her room.

"Wait Anya!" I yelled trying to stop her but she slammed the door in my face. I blinked at the door in front of my eyes and before I knew what I was doing I was opening the door. She was standing in the corner of her room with her back facing toward me.

"Anya," I whispered as I walked up to her from behind.

"Go away." She said refusing to look at me. "Hey it's okay. So what you called me beautiful. Your beautiful too. Their is no since on making a big deal out of it." I said softly taking my chances and wrapped my arms around her, trying to comfort her.

I could feel her back tense up but she slowly started ease into me. I don't know if it's my heart beat thats going crazy or hers but I don't care. Having her tiny body wrapped in my arms feels amazing but I feel like I am doing this for me more then for her.

"Jet this is not necessarily but thank you for trying to comfort me." I could hear the grief in her voice as she hid her face behind her hair. She doesn't have to look at me for me to know what she is feeling. I over heard her tell Blaze a while back that she doesn't want to fall in love. I pulled her in even tighter in my arms but I think it's to late I have already fallen for her.

"Okay." It took all my strength to let her go. I crossed my arms trying to keep the warmth she left behind and she turned around to face me.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean anything romantically about what I said. I don't want you to mistake my feelings toward you. You remind me of my brothers and I don't want to use you as a crutch to replace them. Your a really good friend and I don't want to lose you because of a misunderstanding." She said making my blood go cold. It felt like someone just punch me in my gut, I could hardly breathe. She sideway hugged me and kissed my cheek but I stood there completely froze.

"Your such a good man Jet. You deserve someone who loves you but I'm sorry that's just not me." She said smiling at me sadly leaving the room.

'I remind her of her brothers', just repeating those words in my head makes me feel so sick. She refuses to look at me in any other way. I'm starting to really dislike those brothers of hers. I could feel the anger boiling up in my body.

'She seems to only care for them. I'll have to change that fast I refuse to give up.' I clutched my fist tight and I could feel my nails digging into my skin causing my palms to bleed. 'I swear to you Anya I'll find a way into your heart even if I have to force my way in.' I thought ruthlessly.