Lost or broken Garden

I don't need to have things break on me

I already have too many things break on me

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broken heart,

broken soul and mind

how else can I move on?

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No, I don't need any broken things, I've already had too many things break on me. I'm in the backyard, Time is passing as I pass and walk and bye

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Dead leaves, bent back branches.

These seem to be doing so much better than I. All that seems to be growing in my garden are weeds. Tearing down possibilities from anything. It's all suffocating me.

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I I I I can't breathe

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No, I don't  need broken things, and I already had too much things break on me

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Broken chains, broken links, broken families.

You are the link to me, to us, our family

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Can I repair what is gone but not lost?

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There was only one spot you could fill, there was one spot and we will try to move on, but we won't forget, because forgetting is wrong, because the absence of you fills our empty hearts that were dumped out at the news.

I don't need broken things and I already had too many broken things and you

liked to repair and renew

and restore what is yours,

but now, the main part is you're gone you're here but you can't finish this song, because you're not here but you're here

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Comfort, pain, and hurt

I miss you mom and I wish that it weren't

Like this

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I don't need I'm broken pieces, I already have too many and I

Have too few answers

And I'm lost because I've lost mine

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