Begging for a Miracle

I'm still up on my knees

held together by them, hope,

-and please,

I'm trying to go on, though forgot what's ahead,

It's all wrong holding onto threads

I've got hope and

I've got dread

I had you, now it's dead ends, I still try

Want me to thrive

I'm trying, mom

before I could barely survive

I hold to hope

Cause I can't let go

if I do then I know

I couldn't make you proud, it would be the end. No reason, will, to try again

I'm still up on my knees

I'll together by them, hope, and please,

Please,

Another miracle to have you here. Another miracle. I hold on to hope and can't think too far ahead, because another 80 years without you is too much for my head.

I hold on to hope if only then, for the single thought you're here again

To get up onto my knees and beg God, please give us a miracle she is.

5.22.2020