Chapter 15 : New Roads
*FLASH*
Yeah kinda like those moments where all the good memories of important people in one's life, just flash in front of one's eyes in a split second.
I saw her.
I saw me, seeing her again.
I remembered how I felt for her.
It was as if time, was nothing, and everything had only just happened.
I remembered how her presence felt like.
How my mind calmed when she smiled.
The butterflies in my stomach, the crazy pounding of my heart, those beautiful eyes I'd lose myself into, the times when she'd take my breath away.
I remembered how much I loved her.
Back to reality, I was determined to see her again.
So I waited patiently (not so much)
for the day to arrive when summer camp would start.
I asked her through chat if she would come, and she straight away said that she wouldn't.
That kinda made me upset.
It felt as if she didn't even bother trying to understand that I wanted her to come. So badly.
My second summer camp had begun.
Three days went by in complete boredom.
There was no sign of Rose anywhere.
It wasn't much of a surprise to me either actually, she did reply to my text saying she wouldn't come this time.
But my eyes, would always be searching.
Searching for just that one face my heart longed to see.
But she wasn't there.
I felt bad. Missing her, was just so disappointing to me. It sucked, so much that I wanted to hate her now.
I didn't wanna see her face anymore, for I knew I was getting my hopes up for no reason at all.
She didn't care, she wouldn't wanna be there even if I badly needed her.
So my mind decided to despise her. To forget her somehow, so that I'd finally be free from my own obsessed piece of trash.
15th of July 2016 : Friday
For today's summer camp day, all the children were asked to move to the chapel(one of the main rooms in the church basement) to meet some special guest.
Me, Simon and Malcolm found our seats in the 2nd row from the front.
As I sat into my seat, my brain subconsciously wanted to look around the place, out of sheer habit, for her.
But then I thought to myself,
"why bother now?"
"She probably won't ever show up in your life anymore."
"William!!"
Shouted Malcolm.
"Ask Simon to come sit with us na? Why is he sitting at the back?"
Turning back while seated, looking over to Simon, I signal him to come sit next to me, showing him there's a seat available.
Naturally I turn back to face the front, just as he gets up and makes his way to the seat right next to me.
Unnaturally enough though, I find myself turning back to look behind again, with immense speed, so fast, that it took some time for my brain to process that something had caught my eye.
Simon seemed to be walking slower.
Heck.
Everybody in the room seemed to be doing everything slowly.
For when Simon walked towards me, a girl with beautiful long hair appeared from behind him, wearing a bright Red superwoman T-shirt with black jeans, making her way to her seat, 2 rows behind me.
Her hair covering up her face, made it impossible for my brain to recognize her, but my heart had already begun going crazy.
For a moment I caught her eye.
She looked at me.
I kept looking at her.
The girl who hugged me the last time we met.
What could possibly go wrong in a beautiful situation like this?
She looked away.
Faster than I could even blink.
Realizing what had just happened, I turn to face the front, confused as ever, hurt, even more surprised. That she came.
Her turning away made me want to forget about her even more.
So I decided to ignore her presence, that being my first step.
The next day too, I just stuck to the plan of ignoring her being there and trying to enjoy my time there with my friends.
Yep. Tried.
And I thought, this was it.
Summer Camp 2k16 would be me trying to ignore a person, and "trying" to enjoy myself.
"Why did I even want to come here in the first place?" I asked myself.
17th July. Sunday.
I woke up late in the afternoon, thinking of how todays summer camp day would go rather disappointing.
Little did I know a whole new chapter of life was gonna start on this particular day.