That deadly feeling

"empress consort?" She called but I didn't look up at her or say anything, she raised her hand to touch mine and I slapped it off.

"Hara. Pregnant." I kept muttering to myself while fighting not to breakdown in front of her.

I begin to walk to a different direction absentmindedly as I fight to control myself.

"Lady Nana." I hear Jandi calling as she ran up to me, she grabbed my hand and try pulling me back but I push her off and begin to walk out in a hurry, almost running. She grabbed my hand once again ..I halted and turned to look at her, her face reviews it ..she knows who the Hara is and she's also unhappy about everything.

"You know her too, you saw her! You've been seeing her but you didn't tell me." I said then wipe out a teardrop that I didn't know when it slipped.