Hurting

I know I wasn't breathing properly when she was saying those hurtful things to me ...was I even breathing?  cause it didn't feel like I was, anyways, if I wasn't, I'd be dead by now.My chest hurts, it feels like someone is squeezing it. I know I got up and I know I left but I'm still confused about how my feet was able to move ..just as I'm unsure of what I'm doing here, on this ship full of strange faces.I have never been outside of Mandir before because of one person ..uh (sad giggles) that same person is the reason why I'm running away."I was just using you in order to get rid of a barrier, Woo Bin didn't like virgins and I know you like me so I came to you.  I do not love you and I don't even know if I want any friends right now. I'm sorry if I got your hopes up but I do not love you." She had said ..hadn't she?But I love her ..oh god, how much I so love you Inna.