Mar 15 : Boredom

Dear Diary,

Have I said how boring it is to stay on bed all day? I guess I did. Probably just a few days before. But seriously, it's so boring. Joe is out all day to work, and sis is also at Uncle A's house, helping his wife do some work. Let's just call his wife, Auntie B.

Actually, rather than doing some work, sister is being looked after by Auntie B. When we first move into our house, Uncle and Auntie were welcoming us outside. After knowing that the three of us have no adult companies and that Joe and I planned to find a job, they offer to look after sister while we are away. But Auntie is busy with her own work -she is a flower seller or what they called "florist"-, so it's not possible for her to come to our house every day. That's why sister goes to their house instead, and whilst being there, she helps Auntie B with whatever she can do.

I'm proud that my sister knows how to show gratitude to people that have helped us. We might not be rich, might not have things to give, but there is still some way to show gratitude to other people. We should never forget to say thank you to whoever has helped us.

By the way, Joe has been saying that I'm too apathetic, that I'm too indifferent about living in this world.

Was I?

But I didn't think so? I mean, I care about my sister, and I care about how to stay alive tomorrow. I might not be thinking too far in the future, but hey, we never know when we will die. Why should we think too far? Hell, we don't even know if we will still breathing tomorrow.

I don't understand what's good with being afraid of what'll happen to us if the war escalated. Like how Joe is. He is always worried that the bomb will be dropped here and that we will die soon. Everybody will die sooner or later. Anything in this world will die. No one would be spared. Like Mom and Dad.

It sounds so scary, and it looks scary, but everyone will die at one point in our life, so instead of fretting about dying, shouldn't we just live our life to the fullest? If things happen, it happens.

I'm just focusing on how to keep live through today and how to still be alive tomorrow. I don't see what's wrong with that.