My Love For You

Since I've been an Army , everything in my life changed , my look to the world changed , my thinks changed , my dreams changed and my feelings changed . I started a new life so far from the sadness and the pain , full of hope , colors and happiness , accepting myself and enjoying the melody of the mysterious Serendipity .

The best part of my day is when I comeback home , so tired from school , hardworking to realise my dreams , when I take my headphones and I just keep listening to the angelic voice of the light in the darkness and the happiness in the sadness the incredible Park Jimin .

My love for hem is like the sky , it has no end , my should for hem is like the the weather that I breath , I can't live without , my happiness when I see his smile is like the mother when his little baby says his first word , all this is not a coincidence , and my love for this man is not too , my heart did a strange choice , to believe in the impossible , to love someone who don't know that I exist , to support someone who don't know that I support hem , to live for someone that I've never meet , yes , it's difficult but it's better than to live in the eternal depression like I always do , crying and insulting my own me , I won't do it anymore , this angle saved me from myself , I was killing myself , I was hating myself , I was thinking that nobody will loves me cause I don't deserve to be loved , till the day that I listened to this masterpiece , Serendipity , the teaser of the amazing album Love Yourself : Her but also the best song that I've never listened , it makes me alive when I was dying , it makes feel the pain despair with the tears that I was crying , it makes me feel loved from an amazing person and don't care about the others , it makes me fell that I found the person that I want to give my life for , to do everything that I can to make hem always smiling and to fight for hem for ever .

When you smile I smile , when you laugh I laugh , when you cry I cry , when I hear you're voice I forget the world and I forget the difficult day that I had , yes it's the Parki power .

I can't support one day without listening to your voice , I'm weak but you make me strong , I'm easy to give up but you make me believe that I can , you make the impossible possible and you make the difficult easy .

The moon and the stars in the sky are nothing in front of you , the blue sea with his diversity is nothing in front of your ocean eyes , the most famous pop stars are nothing in front of your vocals , you're special Jimin , you have something that the others don't have , you have a different energy from the others , you have a different smile from the others , you are one in a million or maybe just one in the whole world , the words can't really describe the strange feelings inside me , it will be so nice if a day you know that an Army called Lia loved you so much and did everything you told her to do just to make you happy , it's far to be real but BTS learned me to hope and never say never , dreams can be realities if we have confidence in ourselves . I don't even like to say that I have a dream cause I will fight to make it come true , to be a reality . You better to do same FAM .

The phenomenal Park Jimin ! Just let me love you like you loved me without to know me , you know what ? , you're my dream , you're my past , you're my present and you're my future , nobody will change my look to you cause .... I'm In Love With My Serendipity Jimin !

Tomorrow it's your concert in my country , and you know what ? for the first time I will have the chance to see you for real , not in the screen of my phone but in the stage , I will be there to support you and scream your name everywhere , I will also see Namjoon , Seokjin , Hoseok , Yoongi ,Taehyung and Jungkook , I'm so excited ! I can't wait ! I will be a real Army !

and maybe this will be the last thing that I will do in my life cause ..... in the reality I'm so sick , I have a problem in my heart and I have to do a surgery but .... it's so expensive and my parents can't pay it . The doctor told me that if I don't do it I will die in a few month and the month is over now . Yes , I will die , I'm too afraid but I can't hide from the death but at less , I want to see them before to pass away , I want to feel them close to me and also give them a book . In this book , I wrote all my memories and my feelings for them , I will try to give it for them before my time will over .

oh ! I'm so skirt but also happier than ever , tomorrow I will realise my dream !