The Shadows Around My Heart

« After a week from the accident ... »

" Lia , are you ready ? We have to be in the cabinet of the doctor at 8 am , he will tell us the results of the analysis so please get ready quickly . " . Said my dad waiting me in the kitchen .

" A minute and I will be ready but you don't think that it's a lot , I mean I don't think that he will tell us something interesting " . I was talking while wearing my clothes .

" Yes maybe but we have to go , your health is our priority now . "

" Dad , what is today ?! " .

" Mmmm I think it's July 2nd " .

" You don't think that it's a special day ?! " .

" No , why ? did I forget something ? " .

" Really ! Nothing ! Dad ! " .

" Hah don't worry I'm just joking , happy birthday baby hope this year will be full of love and happiness , I also have a little surprise for you " .

" A surprise ! what is the surprise ?I love surprises ! I'm really curious to know ! please tell me ! " .

" it won't be a surprise if you know , I will tell you later " .

" Please ! " .

" No " .

" Dad ! " .

" I've told you no " .

" Okay , I'm ready we can go " .

« At The Cabinet »

" Good morning Mr and Ms Kim " . Said the doctor inviting us to set , his office was so big and full of papers everywhere .

" Good morning " . Responded my dad .

" I have to tell you something about your daughter " . Wearing a serious face suddenly .

" Okay speak " .

I was just waiting to hear what he had to say about me , I can't hide that I had a strange mixed with fear .

" Well , we found that the heart of your girl is not okay , she has a rare illness , it needs a surgery but it's so expensive and the percentage of success does not surpass 50 % "

My father eyes became bigger and the signals of the nerves are clear in his face , he said with an afraid voice : " What if she doesn't the surgery ?! " .

" It's difficult to say but if she doesn't the surgery after a month she won't survive " .

Hearing these words is like seen the death in front of you , I was too afraid and sad but looking to my dad was hurting me more .

We went outside , my dad was chocked thinking about what can he do to save his only girl . A moment of silent inside the car then my he looked to me and his eyes are full of tears chowing his pain and told me : " I'm sorry , I couldn't protect you , I'm sorry , I couldn't make you live the life that you wanted , I'm sorry ... please forgive me " .

" No dad , don't say this , my happiness is when I'm with you , it's all I need " Responded I trying to seem strong but inside it's totally different .

" I can't to help you to get better , I feel myself useless " .

" Don't ... "

" All I can already is to try to realise your dreams before ... " .

" Dad ! "

" I've told you that I had a surprise for you , it's a ticket to the concert of the kpop group that you love " .

" You mean BTS ?! "

" Yes , I know how much you love them and they will come to our country so I decided to surprise you by doing this , they will perform after a month of today , I didn't know that it will be your last event , I'm ... "

Wearing a crying face I told hem : " Thank you ... Thank you so much ... Thank you " .

I was so happy to realise my biggest dream but so skirt from the shadow of the death . I can't stop my tears cause it shows the filling inside me , I can't ...

« Comeback »

The day that I will die in is now come , I will die in the BTS concert , my only dream , they are in front of me , even if now all I can see is the darkness but I still can feel them close to me . I can feel the shadows around my heart and the my soul dying , it's the end of my story , I will sleep forever ...

" Sam ... "

" Lia don't talk , I called the help , they will arrive soon "

" In my bag I have a book , please give it to Jimin and the other members , that's my last hope " .

" Don't say that and all BTS members are here " .

" Plese give it to them "

" Yes I will but stay with me ! don't leave me ! don't forget our promise ! LIA ! "

Sam ' s voice despaired Little to little and my life despairing with his voice . Thanks , I'll never forget that you were always with me ...