Easy

Right now, this is the song that helps me keep going. I love the lyrics. It says

"Let's just catch a vibe,

Let's just take our time,

Just relax our minds,

.... And take it easy...

Don't have to decide,

You do, I do, I

Don't have to be mine,

... Let's take it easy..."

This song kind of gives me a euphoric feeling. I can't help swaying myself with the rhythm of this. It's really chill..

Why did I choose this song for the first chapter?

See, as some of you must be knowing that I'm in kota right now. That's like, 1100 kilometers from my home. And no matter how hard I try to keep my face straight, maintain the strong facade, and hide what I actually feel, I fear that I'll just break down in public some day.

I'm a loner. I don't really expect emotional support from people. I don't expect anything from people. But when I try to sleep at nights, and the over-thinking part of my brain does the thing he's perfect at, (over think over random shit) I can't help feeling weak.

I mean... I've been through the same shit my entire life. I don't have a very huge friend circle, just the selected close ones. But Kota has taken my anxiety to some other level.

I'm failing to understand what actually is wrong with me.

I'm studying. Just like I used to.

I'm sleeping. Just like I used to. (Maybe the duration has decreased drastically, but I can't be blamed for that.)

My intake is a totally balanced diet.

Yet! I have this urge to punch some bitchy faces in one moment!!! And I feel I should apologize the very next moment.

Is that normal?

I don't know.

So that's the reason I chose this song. I listen to this a lot. And as a person who focuses on the lyrics a lot, I seriously get relieved after listening to it.

It's like, I'm telling myself,

"It's okay. Chill. Take a deep breath. Relax. You don't have to prove anyone, anything. Just focus on improving your performance and you'll be golden."

And, believe it or not. A small pep talk to yourself can help you a lot more than any Sandeep maheshvari vedio. (No offense. Nothing personal. I too am a fan of Sandeep maheshvari.)

So yeah. That was why I chose this song. You guys should definitely give it a listen. It's refreshing.

Now...

Let us do the stuff people really like...

The wandering around!!

So I just realized that I may end up writing some really heart to heart, serious stuff in this edition. And to maintain the balance, (geez, I sound like Thanos) I've decided that I'll be writing some usual shit as well.

Are you ready for that??

I don't really care if you're not. I'm gonna write it anyway.

So, here in Allen (that's the name of the institute I'm studying in) the classes are divided into morning and evening batches. Which are ALSO divided into different batches, depending on, age, marks, interest, language, aaaaaanndd... (Drumroll please...) GENDER! Yeah people! We have seperate classes for guys and girls.

That's kind of okay, as it keeps us away from distraction. But it also builds a wierd sensation inside us, whenever we encounter the opposite sex, because we've been so deprived to even see them. (This level is certainly very high in males.)

The reason I'm telling you this is that, today it was raining in Kota. I live on  second floor of my hostel, and my friend lives on the fourth. So to enjoy the view of the beautiful rain and lightning, over silicon, we decided we'll be looking out oh her window, which happen to be facing our institute's building. The problem was that we didn't realize, the classes going on were of boys. So we we're just being ourselves. Leaning on the window pane, enjoying Oreo. And then, the shit began.

All of a sudden, all the guys came to the windows, literally screaming, "Girls! Girls! Girls! Girls!"

And for a second​, me and my friend we're looking around the room to see which girl are they talking about. It took us longer then it should to realize that we too were girls. (Yeah. That happened.)

Every single person on this Earth craves for affection and attention. But there's just so much you can tolerate. We seriously had to close our windows because we felt bullied. It might sound that I'm over reacting, but that actually is how I felt. It was just so creepy to see all the guys (like literally. All the guys. Every single window was hoarded with guys) trying to get your attention.

Worst of all. They weren't even good looking.

Just kidding. Worst of all was that We spent the entire evening procrastinating. We were just googling about celebs and their zodiacs.

The weirdest thing was that some random website said, saggitarius are really bad singers. And I was like, Bitch!? Are you kidding?!

Charlie Puth, Shawn Mendes, Selena Gomez, Miley Cyrus, all are saggitarius. (Mee too😻)

I dare you to sing as good as any of the names mentioned above. (Not me😅)

So, all in all. Horoscopes are crap. I read them a lot. But I believe them only when they say nice things about me. Whenever they go against the motion, I just pretend like I never read it.

That's what you should do as well.

Take the best, and kick out the rest. This goes especially, for compliments. By feeling negative about ourselves, we're helping our haters. Don't help your haters. Stay happy forever, look them in the eyes coldly, and walk away flipping your hairs like a boss bitch gangster.

I think this much Should be enough​. It's an absolute delight to be back.

That's all for today, folks.

See ya soon enough.

Lv ya ❤️.