TRUTH OR DARE?

"Well now that it has come this." Namjoon began.

"Truth or Dare?" Namjoon asked and I shrugged not knowing which to pick, but truth could be harmful for me, it might lead to the point of me telling them I'm here to disband them, so I shook off the thought of truth and spattered "Dare".

Jungkook shook his head, gently smiling at my innocence or my wrong pick, I guess.

"Sit on Jungkook's lap" Yoongi said that in such a calm way as though it was not a big deal.

"WhAT!?" I gasped lowly, yet my shock was a clear statement of how much of an arduous and flustering task that was for me.

"There's no turning back in this game, you gotta do it" Namjoon said plainly and gestured me to go to Jungkook.

"Yah~ No fair. She won't do that" Taehyung protested but to no success.

"Tae you already have her to yourself and besides it's just a game. Grow up!" Jimin hit Taehyung in the back of his head and Taehyung ended up agreeing to the dare.

I felt like burying myself out of shame.

I slogged towards Jungkook almost reluctantly,

"Should I?" I was brought up to be an elegant, polite child so I had to at least take his permission for doing something like that.

Maybe that was only my thought, as everyone burst into laughter at me taking permission for something like that.

"Stop it...." I whined like a child and then reluctantly sat on Jungkook's lap as I had to. I completely avoided Taehyung's death-stare and the smirks from all corners of the circle we were sitting in.

I moved and shifted now and then, trying to make myself a little more comfortable.

"Stay still or I won't be able to control myself" Jungkook held me by the arms and whispered in my ears. I almost stupefied on hearing that and didn't move an inch thereafter.

The game continued as it should.

It was a rather intriguing and fun experience for me, I don't even remember the last time I had played truth and dare.

"Jungkook and Jimin, do the coming of age dance" Jin said and turned on the music.

All of us hooted and whistled as they danced to the song.

It was a joyous thing being here with them and enjoying my day to my heart's content.

It all seemed too good to be true.

Now was my turn to rotate the bottle and so I bent forward to do so, the bottle stopped pointing towards Taehyung and me.

"Finally" Taehyung gave a sigh of relief and I giggled.

"Truth or Dare?" I asked him, and expected him to pick dare, however he didn't.

"Truth" he said plainly. As my mind had already brought up to believe that he'd go for dare, I didn't know what to ask.

Jungkook whispered something in my ear, and I looked at him with a bewildered face, but he simply gestured me to ask him, so I shrugged and went ahead.

"Taehyung…" I sighed "Who was your last hook-up?"

Taehyung seemed almost triggered at that question, but why?

He told he had never been in a serious relationship so it shouldn't be hard to answer.

"Umm…" he began hesitantly "Do I really have to?" he questioned which made things even more cynical for me.

"Of course" I replied, waiting for him to just say no one or I don't remember but what he said was rather staggering for me.

"Tzuyu" my gaze froze at him, my mind and body were in a state of shock, I hadn't ever expected to hear something like this from him. What was I even expecting from him? Given his looks and fame, he probably has done it so many time. How could I be so naive to believe I was his first kiss?

And at that moment, I was crestfallen, everything seemed so blur around me. I was humiliated, I felt dumb and betrayed by my own expectations, like they say, don't keep your hopes high.

I pain sailing got off Jungkook and rushed to exit the terrace, "Hikari," Taehyung tried to grab my hand but I shrug it off and hurried down to my room, locked it behind me and rushed towards the bathroom.

I turned on all the taps in the bathroom to suppress my cries, I don't want him to know. It is obviously not an issue for any of them.

I don't know why it felt so bad.

Was it hurting because earlier he had mentioned Tzuyu,

(memory flash) "I could date Tzuyu or Irene instead you know?"

Or was it hurting because there were always dating rumours about him and her.

Or maybe it hurt to this extent because on top of all he lied to me.

He's just playing with my feelings, and here I thought I was someone to him.

It just hurt so bad, I couldn't bare face him right now.

I knew it all was too good to be true, he has done all this before.

He's loved someone before, kissed someone before, gone out with someone before, that excitement of being in a relationship he has experienced all of it before. And here I was, thinking that it was a set of his 'Firsts' too.

Jungkook knew that Tae's just playing around.

I've never experienced love apart from my mother, which in itself was a fleeting moment. I was always trepidatious of being with someone, dating someone, because I could never handle the pain of them leaving.

I just ended up running straight into the hell I was so desperately trying to avoid.

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