will to live

What if I, told you. A story, about how it all began. Chaos and ruin everywhere you went. There's no escaping this hell. You've just got to survive. Just got to survive a little while longer.

I think I messed up. I think I've gone insane. I've got to go, I've got to go, I've got to go. Far away from this place.AFRAID. so afraid to know what happens in the end.

God please help me understand. Why am I here. What have I ever done wrong to you. To deserve this hell you put me through.