your wasting my time

oh my god what a beautiful catastrophe,I can't even here my own thoughts as there thinking. maybe it's because I'm drowning out all the sound, ( with noise) music, oh sweet precious music, filling my ears with something nice to here.

maybe someday ( not today) I'll stop wasting my time. someday like the rest I'll put my mind to the test. ( no rush) just relax. come on and grab a snack. when we're done we can think again ( I hope) only if it won't be as violent as it was before. ( to late) it's taken control, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, sometimes. thing just. get stuck. in my. head. right now I'd rather be crying laying down in my own bed. but no I'm in the middle of school. I'm here to learn not act a fool. ( shut up ) no you. ( now what the fuck am I supposed to do.) calm down. just think. ( we just tryd and failed. ) well there's really no way we can bail. ( there's always kys ) no Ill miss food to much and plus I've moved past far away from that stage. ( fuck you I'm going to bed). NO WAIT...