chapter 6

this life I had might of been tuff but it made me strong. it thought me what things not to do and how to treat other people. this life I lead now I may get upset and cry and wish that my life was different or that I was read or should of died all them times that I should have been but its like this, if I wasn't here then just maybe others couldn't learn to be strong like me. im here to help those who went thro bad situations and all I want is to let you know that's its not your fault. life is what you make of it so don't let your pain be your crutch! life is a journey and some of us go thro very ruff life's but to me those who had it bad like me learn at a very early age how to appreciate what they have. I could of been dead several times but look im still here and often I still think if I didn't live who would care or even notice my nonexistence! not many would care but for those who would well I appreciate all that you do for me. I just want u all to know that I really do appreciate those who don't judge me or put me down. for those who believe in me I thank you! sometime I really want my life to end and sometimes I wish that I didn't live way back when because of people always picking on me. but I always remind myself what an awesome person that I have become despite my past. anyone who would know my past would be proud of whom I've become and wouldn't look at the little things like me not being able to spell good. sometimes I wonder how cruel some people can be. why what are you acheving or accomplishing. it is so much easier and uses so much less effert to be nice to someone. with out knowing the person how could you possibly even think its ok. but one thing that I fight with on a daily is that all I want is the love I never felt as a kid. I don't know but it just feels like a peace of me is missing. makes me think that maybe there is a reason people cant seem to love me as I should and deserve to be loved! but as long as you are confident about who you are then no one can get in your way. come at peace with all the bad that you went thro and you'll soon see how happy you truly can be! only you can make a positive change in your life! so be the best you that you can possibly be!