A Crack in Mentality

Shortly after Noah's incident with Damien, Noah sat at the kitchen table sitting with his father watching his mother tremble while picking up a shot glass full of gin. His father put his hand over hers as she was about to cry "Stop dear we can't afford losing you to alcoholism again, and now I see what causes it", he looked towards Damien's room. Noah looked at his Father "I feel bad for Lenè, living like that with him for so long ". Damien's older brother came out of the lab staring at his nephew "What was all the commotion about, I've been working in the lab for 48 straight hours and come out to this shit ".Noah scoffed"It was Damien just throwing a fit, Lenè is currently locked it that room down the hall". Damien's older brother sighed as he pulled a stool and sat next to his sister , he grabbed a shot.

Noah looked at them "We need to get her out of the room he locked her in, she's quiet now, but she has no food no nothing".

Damien's brother Samuel looked at him after drinking the gin " No, we leave her in there, do not bother Damien's plans".

Noah lifted an eyebrow "What is wrong with the two of you?"

He smirked of denial "We weren't there like he was for us when we were younger, so whatever he does goes, we can't stop him".

Noah's Father chimes in "It doesn't matter what happened in the past just stop him".

After a fifth glass of Gin, Noah's mother slammed the glass down and cried "You don't understand!"

Noah's father chimes in "I very much do, you're just enabling him to do bad things-

She picked up her shot glass throwing it past her husband's head onto the fridge "He was molested throughout his childhood into young Adulthood… by our Father!", she yelled. Both of their eyes widened. Samuel looked at them and put his shot down "I rather have it be me then him, he was only seven when it first happened to him if I can remember correctly", Samuel then pulled out a cigarette and lit it. "Anyways your idiot husband has no say in our family matters", he proceeded to smoke his cigarette. Noah's father looked at Noah's mother "Jeanette, I'm heading to bed,", he took off his glasses and looked back at her and Noah "I don't want to hear about Damien when I'm around you".

He closed the door to his room, as Jeanette and Samuel passed out on kitchen counter. Noah put a blanket on his mother and threw a blanket on his Uncle. Noah glanced at the room Lenè was locked in and sighed, "I'm sorry", he muttered before falling asleep in his room.

-///-

Damien unlocked Lenè's door as soon as dawn hit. He closed the door behind him to see Lenè asleep with her hair down. The room was a mess, papers were everywhere the tv was smashed but still working. There was a notebook tossed in between the bed and nightstand. Damien picked it up without waking Lenè, he smiled as soon as he opened her notebook "Drunk by sadness, enamored by my thoughts, I shouldn't have drank that wine. Maybe I should satisfy him and get it over with, maybe I would like it. Maybe Raya was right? I am Daddies Whore. Nothing makes sense anymore, my brain and my body might want different things, he hurts me… hurts me a lot, fuck me."

Damien smiled while he continued to read "Why won't he let me go to medical school? I'm watching the news and I may have found something, I'm smart, really I am. It looks like a hemorrhagic fever not as deadly as Ebola though. Bloody tears, crust under their eyes, vomiting blood, it's bad but apparently it only takes 4 days for your body to completely shut down. It's spreading by direct and indirect contact. I think I drew the virus strand right".

Damien gasped "No way", he muttered.

He smiled, and proceeded to put the little notebook in his pocket. He slowly picked up all the papers she threw out of the drawer and turned off the broken television. He put the papers she had thrown on the floor onto the counter then admired how beautiful she looked sleeping. He placed his hand on her face gently, she immediately woke up. He felt a wave of panic over his body until he saw she was disoriented. Her hair was down and she sat up in her underwear as she lifted the sheets off of her. Her disoriented brain had ignored Damien, she had started to gag. She sped walk into the bathroom and vomited. Damien held her hair back, he looked at her back then smiled. Lenè wiped her mouth and started to cry, Damien looked shocked to see her cry so suddenly. "Daddy!", she sobbed uncontrollably,caught off guard Damien had faced her "It's okay, darling".

She suddenly became silent, he put his hand over his forehead, and sighed of relief. "No fever", he muttered. She passed out leaning on his chest, while her body struggled to keep her standing. As his eyes were about to wonder, Jeanette had unlocked the door with a key. "Damien…", she whispered.

"She's so peaceful after she's chaotic, truly beautiful. She really is like her mother", he spoke to Jeanette.

"Damien, move away from her", She looked scared.

Damien almost startled himself thinking it was some sign of the virus but really she was worried seeing Lenè half-naked in his arms.

He lifted Lenè and placed her on the bed, putting sheets over her.

"I would never do that to her, without her fully knowing the extent of the situation, I'm not our Father."

Jeanette stood by the doorway "I know, but you didn't have to lock her up in a room for your own pleasure… doesn't that sound familiar."

Damien glared at her "Shut your mouth".

Jeanette smiled out of anger "Oh yeah! You know damn well you are the only father figure she has, and… and you want to make me the bad guy by telling you to resist those pedo urges! Don't even start that shit with me , you are so like him, wanting to fuck Lenè when she was a kid and crying to me about it because that's so morally wrong.. but you knew the entire time you didn't care, if you cared about those urges we wouldn't be in this situation right now, Damien! I wish you did kill yourself that day."

She drank from a bottle of Gin in a brown paper bag.

All Damien could do was close the door on her, he sat on the edge of Lenè's bed and tried to stop himself from breaking down. He suddenly felt a hand on his shoulder "Father".

Lenè held her forehead "None of that is your fault."

Lenè had a migraine from he hangover but yet she sat up and talked to him "I don't know the whole story but thank you for not being like him, my biological father and yours".

Damien put one hand on her cheek "Yeah, I try my best".

"But- I have to know, why did you give Raya away?", Lenè asked.

He paused then looked her in her eyes "I despised her, you know how I feel about her, I told you before back in the cabin."

"No…no…no…no…no…no…no…no…no…no, Fuck! No… because of me?!", she yelled in denial.

"Calm down, love", Damien spoke.

She started crying again "You don't understand! you were never with her for long hours on end, I was a mother to her… and she wanted you to be a father to her but you were never there! She just gave you a wrong first impression… but now she's gone… and it's my fault… all my fault!"

Damien softened his gaze "No, it's not."

She looked at him while she wiped her tears "I- Ill do anything, bring her back please! I'll sleep with you, I won't hate you anymore… please… father please."

Damien looked stunned "No… Lenè darling, I can't get her back, she's out of my hands now…"

She sobbed harder "Please… even just a phone call to know that she's okay… I'll kiss you… I'll let you touch me, I'll obey!"

Damien sighed "This Lenè is not what I wanted to happen, believe me when I tell you I don't want you to force yourself to like me or anything that just came out of your mouth. I want to be your father, I'm bad at it, clearly. I just couldn't be Raya's father anymore… but I promise a phone call or two throughout the month… okay?

He continued "I- just stay with me, don't leave. I need you to keep me sane.

Lenè calmed down, she hugged him as she stood up. "I'm sorry I hit you earlier, I don't know what came over me, never again… I couldn't imagine how scared you must of been..", Damien whispered into her ear.

Lenè tied her hair up, putting a loose dress on. Before she left the room she hugged Damien again, before Damien pulled away she held his head and gave him one slow passionate kiss as it was goodbye.