New emotions

He was the only guy who made me this unstable with my emotions.

I was angry on him but I felt gratitude that he he saved me twice though he saved me because his friends but still he saved me.

In his eyes I saw pain the pain I see everyday in my eyes.

The pain of loosing someone. In my case it was loosing the love of my family , but the question was whom did he lost?

so I decided to not hurt him because I would give anything to anyone who can make my pain disappear ,in his case it was his friends so I decided to let his friends have there fun which was torturing me and Sakshi .

it's not like I will be hurt by his friends little tricks .

it was Sakshi I was worried about.

she is not like me. she fragile.she cries if anyone says anything behind her back.

I have to look after her. but I will not be the cause of Arjun's pain .

After thinking a lot about it I got back to the hostel.

Sakshi was already there.

she hugged me and started talking very fast .

it sounded like she was talking in a new language.

I told her to calm down and then talk.

After 10 minutes she calmed down and told me -" Shama and other seniors stopped me.where did he take you? why are you so late? did he hurt you ? oh! my god look at your hand it has his finger marks ."

I looked down at my hand . it had finger marks . I was surprised I didn't noticed it from the start.

I answered -" I am fine. I think he held my hand very strongly that's why it bruised. it's not going to look good tomorrow. I don't know where did he took me .

it was someplace behind our school."

Sakshi told me -" they were talking about that place . they said that nobody goes to that place except him. he never took any other person there. Shama was quite jealous ''.

I said -" I don't know why he took me there. why was Shama jealous?"

Sakshi answered -" don't you know Shama is Arjun's best friend. everyone in the school says she loves him and he also loves her but Arjun Never took her there. so she was jealous."

I answered -" I didn't knew that they were boyfriend girlfriend . I don't know why he took me there? I guess he was too angry to notice besides Shama has nothing to be jealous of. haven't she noticed his hatred for me".

Sakshi answered -" I think Shama has a reason to be jealous. because you are the only girl he is interested in any way. he only tortures you but never lets you to get hurt. always saves you in the last moment. he took you to that special place . whereas his friends have never been to that place. I guess she's quite right to be jealous".

I told her-" whatever you are saying is quite illogical. I know he only hates me. I think he will kill me if he has a chance.? now enough chatting we have to get some sleep otherwise we'll look like zombies tomorrow"

After all the talking we went to our beds for sleeping.

but I couldn't sleep I kept thinking about the things Sakshi told me.

Am I special to him or he just really hates me that much.