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After the texting kind of thing,i tell myself no more crush thing.But as you know i cant,Raz still on my mind no matter what.I mean like i become crazy because of him like he has a poison in him or spell like make every girl crush on him.I can't stop thinking about him and went the end of 2017 and come to 2018,i still have feeling for him.But this time i have a bad feeling i feel like he is the one cause he is the only person that i cant stop thinking about.Like whos his crush or is he gonna be taken by someone or he aready taken.I ask his friends and his friends say he still single.Iz ask me to confess to him about my crush thing on him and i was like * i tell him aready and if i tell him again no use,he might have feeling for someone else*. Iz just look at me and nod.The weirdest thing that his status on whatsapp is almost the same thing as mine.I wrote "waiting" while he wrote "tell me why im waitin.." i was like why we wrote that suddenly and his profile picture was almost same as mine standing and poseing.We cant be to excited over that right cause it might be fate or maybe just you know.My heart felt really happy and i cant stop thinking about him.I decide to tell him again but this time im going be straightforward to him.I text a long paragraph that im still like him and why i still like him.Yup i did that and i was panic and i was scared then he seen it,omg he seen it and i quickly delete the text then he texted back but i was kinda middle short paragraph saying* its okayy to have crush,its normal but its not the right time cause we have to study first you know* i was like ouh okayy but i texted him back *omg,thank god hahaha sorry* yup that kind of thing,not to make it awkward you know.But after awhile i suddenly realise that i text a long paragraph just to tell him how i felt about him and why i cant stop thinking about him.I didn't ask for more didn't i....cause i thought maybe i confess we can try to be more then a friend or maybe suddenly he like me back but i was wrong i think way to far.He just want to study and want to go a good school thats all cause if you in a relationship,it gonna be hard for both of you. Thinking about relationship and going out often and texting well thats hard for a secondary student. And me myself not ready for that kind of think,im not ready for my first heart breaking love relationship and cry and etc.I myself want to go to a better school and better future maybe this kind of thing not gonna happen to me in secondary but maybe in ITE or Universal or Collage.Maybe someday theres a person who would like me for me.