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Cant stop thinking about him,some night i had a dream about him and sometime when in reality i saw him talking and flirting with Nah.I cant stop thinking about him and sometime i thought that maybe he like Nah like maybe or even worst yes he really like her.Cause he maybe its him or maybe its my feeling but everytime i talk to him he never look me in the eyes but when come to Nah,Sarah or Al he always or like when talking to them or they talking to him he look them in the eyes while im talking he look other direction or try not to eye contact me.I was like why,im kind of person when im talking,look in my eyes people like be respect to people you talking to when he talks i look him then he was looking at somebody but not me.He make me feel like im invisible to him like when i try to not eye contact him then his face or maybe eyes wanna to eye contact me back i can see it,while i was looking straight but not in his eye,your eyes have this reflection from beside it you know i mean yeah like that but his eye contact me is like less in a minture just ine look then turn to other person eyes.But he looks at other person eyes is more then a minture.I just hate that,i try to ask him why then he say it just a habit but why your habit is like that why cant you look at me but others.Yeah you can say that im kinda jealous but not that why of jealous,cause he say that im his best friend and why he never treat me like one and i started to be cold towards him but still i cant cause it just not me maybe our friendship isn't gonna be.I suddenly dream about him and Nah being together or like he saids to me that he like her and everytime i dream about that im scare it gonna be real but even worst right in front of my eyes.I try to avoid it so everytime he talk to Nah or look at her or seated beside her i try to be cool and just let them be or just walk away everytime he appear while Nah beside me or with me.Some people said that Raz and me is a perfect couple everytime we seated together.While hearing that he try to avoid it and ignore it until now today 2019.