The confess 2018

So basically our school have a confess account and everbody can confess about it and it just between the followers and between the keyboard.I was scrolling through the confess account,then i saw my name appear in it and i read it and the person say *(my name)from(my class) is damn cute,whats her account*,i kept readying it about 3 times and asking myself whos this person and why he confess in this account.I ignore it and tell myself it maybe just somebody tryna prank me thats all.So after few day that person kept confessing it and my friends sent it to me at our grp chat.The person say that *i was damn cute and he wish that he coukd hug me*,Al was like laughing and my best friend,Husky was mad cause the way he confess is way to far.Then my other friend,Nish keep teasing me say *chey(my name) have secret admire sey* i was not liking this.My classmate knew about it n some say it was a NA boy from our level while other say it was our junior tryna prank me.,i was ouh and sometimes i ignore it.I was okay with someone having crush on me but why confess at the account while everybody can see it then say it to me in person or maybe texted me.Raz was looking at like suddenly when people say that somebody like me and i hear *ouh,somebody like(my name)*they i try not to look at him and just ignore everyone.Then this boy from NA tell me it was a NA boy from his class that like me,he told me the name but i cant believe it. Haz was having a crush on me but that what he told me so i kept quiet and ignore it.After a sometimes,Haz finally dm me and say that he like me,so basically we knew each other when it was a school trip to bandung so that when it happen.It happen because of our luggage.I was helping out or incharge of taking people luggage while his one was right infront of me and i was holding it amd then he say *thats mine one* then i look at him and my hand just let go of his luggage cause the way he say it make my heart feel scared because of his tune.Then his friend say *why you let go* i was in stone then less a minture i look at him and say sorry.My mind cant keep thinking about that situation so i talk to him say * im sorry i didn't know that it was yours * he look at me and say *thats okayy* so after the memories of the trip he start to confess to me in 2019. He was the first boy that have the guts to text me and say *i think i like you*.So we chat and chat,then suddenly was curious why me,so i ask him the same reason when somebody have crush on me,*why you like me* he texted and say *i think your pretty and cute* my heart was flutter by his words.I was falling to his sweet words. He suddenly say *you dont like me?* like he suddenly say that and i tell him that i was curious that all and i didn't say that i dont like him. I cant get over it just that i dont believe it happening to me in 2019 like legit. I was like there are way better girl and more pretty then me and he was like saying im pretty too.My heart was really flutter,he ask me weather i told anyone about his name to anyone so i tell him my close friend only knew and the person only knew was my junior that was suspected me and Raz together.Yup,suddenly my junior and i become close friend but more then a close friend,we were like sister.We chat morning to night and he ask me if i had any boyfriend before,i told him i didn't have boyfriend before,he also say that him himself didn't have girlfriend too. I was shock cause i thought maybe he have a girlfriend before but he didn't and he ask me why i think that cause i told him that he was handsome and he didn't think himself that and he also curious why i didn't have boyfriend and i say that im fay and big,without any thoughts and tell me *so....your cute* my heart beat really fast the moment he say that.After that he using the word i and u when texting me and i feel weird cause i never use that to anyone and i dont like that words cause it kinda cringe so i tell him not to use that and thank god he understand and no heart feeling.I told this all to my junior and she was happy for me,so she want me to be together with him but she want to know him or how he look like.I sent her his picture,then the bad news appear she say that he was a stalker before yup i was shock.I ask her really she say that she saw it with her two eyes while sending her friend home.He was following them while he was how to say was like have a crush in my junior friend so that way he stalk them i guess.After hearing this my heart was torn,i thought that this guys would be the one but his not cause i trust my junior and i believe every words so she ask me to stop texting him and ask him to stop seeing me.I was heart broken and sad cause i was aready fall for him....I ask my friend and his CCA friend how he like they say that he was blur,kind and just fine and when i hear that i couldn't believe he would he a stalker.My friend ask me to just go for it but i have to listen to my junior cause im scare to be heart broken,so i tell him that im not gonna do that.His CCA friend ask me if i like him and say no and i say bad thing about him that make my heart torn into pieces...I was like feeling like crying and scare to lose someone like him and i just say that i cant contact him and im not ready for this cause i have feelung for my crush still.This words make him heart broken like mine cause i broke someone heart for the first time and i told him that he make me feel bad when im the one that make him heart broke and depress.I make him high hope towards me but i grateful that his friend are there to support him and counselling him about this thing...I just hope he found the person he looking forr....I did ask him weather we could still be friend but he say that he would talk to me in school but he didn't so thats how i knew he wouldn't treat me as friend....