Christmas Eve

It's Christmas Eve today and Carly was over helping us set our decorations up for the holiday.

I was drinking hot chocolate in my room.

This is day three of post-Lexi's death. I do miss her a lot.

I was writing my story about my life.

Lexi could have been there for me if Becky was not in the picture.

~*~

Everyone was downstairs in the living room counting down the seconds until Christmas while I was texting my friends that I had.

Carly's friends from lunch were really nice to me when I texted them.

They were asking about the new year already. They wanted to get together on the day before New year's Eve and have a party. They asked me to come over.

I don't know. I'm not really sure if I'm a party person.

"Okay." I texted to them.

I put my phone down and turn over on the bed.

Maybe sleep can help me forget about Lexi.

Later that night I had a dream that Lexi and I were at the carnival again.

"October why did you let me go," Lexi asks.

"I didn't," I reply. "You're dead."

"October what I was not able to tell you in the hospital room was that you need to get back with Becky. You love her and she loves you."

"I can't get her heart even if I tried."

"Woo her October. You wooed me when I met you and I wanted to hangout with you."

Becky's ghost form starts to disappear.

"I have to go. Remember who you really love October."

Lexi pulls me in for a kiss. Lexi starts to disappear.

"Wait Lexi!"

It was too late. Lexi was gone.