Low Expectations

I was sitting around my friends, who were all secretly drinking alcohol I could smell it in their breaths.

"And tell me Frankie why you don*t dump him and be a free spirit?" Sasha ,the eldest of us, asks very bluntly.She never cared if it was harsh or light she spoke her mind.

"I am leaving him- today." they all looked at me. They didn't belive me. "I can't deal with him anymore,he hasn't even texted me once in the last two weeks that we got back together. I just can't deal with it."

I knew if I looked into Michael's eyes I wouldn't be able to do it. He had that affect on me and I hated it, it made me feel weak. He walked in as always ignoring until I came up to him, he used to let me hug him and give him a kiss on the cheek, seems as if even that was too much for him now.

"I need to talk to you please, now." He looked around and gave me a questioning look.

"Okay?" he stood up and even though he was physically tall, I felt totally in control.

" I can't do whatever we are anymore. Its been two years and ever since our first year together you've set me aside and taken me for granted. I cry every night because you always remind me that you don't love me, and I let you emotionally abuse me. I let so much slide and I never knew why. I let you use me when you wanted sex and money. But I can't anymore, I love you but even I have a limit." I looked at the ground to me black shoes. Michael seemed in shock and even tried to hold me.

"I'm sorry. I'll be better I promise please don't leave me." I've heard this before, I usually believe him. It's taking everything in me not to believe him.

" I can't be with someone who doesn't love me."

"But I care!" he pushed me against the wall. "I care Frankie I care." it wasn't the first time he was rough like this.

" Then care to let go of me." I didn't want to cry in front of him so I held a lot in. I turned all emotion off, I feel numb.

He did end up letting go and walking back to where everyone was. My phone rang. Ruben. That's not new he always calls me.

"Hey. Where you at?" he's voice was always loud and deep. I never really minded him, I know he's a close friend of my sisters and brother in law. He was nice whenever he saw me and my mom at church. That's Ruben.

"Campus. Why?"

"What's wrong?"

That now shocked me because he never asked about my feelings.Even if I know I suck at hiding them from certain people. Yet, Ruben isn't someone who's been around for so long to know how I work.

" I guess I just broke up with my boyfriend." I say mostly uncertain of who I'm talking to. I hear nothing but static on the other line.

"I broke up with my girl too." he said a little too happy.

"Are you okay?" he sounded a little to happy, but I ask mostly out of curiosity.

"Hell yeah! She was crazy as f***. She was abusive and didn't support me so I got tired of it and said I'm done."

That's right he's told me about her. It's kind of the same thing with Michael only but the rough part. He's told me how he's been getting clean and getting closer to God for the better life. In my opinion he has. He told me how she never supported him and she herself was getting into trouble and doing drugs. She was becoming toxic and I don't blame him for wanting to leave.

I laid outside on the grass in the shade and told him everything ,minus the push to the wall of course. He listened as always he listened.

"You don't talk much in person do you?" he asked with a serious but side of curious tone.

"No one talks to me- so I don't talk. But I can also talk a lot. So I have been told." I like questions because I usually have answers.

"Hey im sorry but i have to go. I'll text you alright."

I frowned a bit in sadness. "okay text you.bye."

Back to reality.