The Scent of The Grim Reaper - Part 5

Beyond the pain was the indignity. To be forced to his knees where someone had a chance of finding him. That was miserable. But that fear lent him strength. Somehow, that image of Oliver Patrick had become important to him. Something he'd worked hard on. The rumours that they spoke of him now reflected strength far beyond what he himself felt capable of.

At least, this way, he reasoned, it would be less likely that Verdant or Jorah would find out about what assailed him. It would be easier if they didn't know. Less complicated. There was too much about Oliver's internal structure that he couldn't openly share with other people. He couldn't bare all of himself to anyone – none but Dominus, who'd dared to accept the curse that resided within him.

Back in his room, he would have had nowhere to vomit, except on the floor, and then he would have had no chance of cleaning it up without being discovered.