Ch.14

so are you okay now... josh asked with a smile

i may have seemed like an idiot to fall from the stairs. why did i even do that... time to resent myself...

but see what i gained, two nights alone with josh... who is gonna take care of me.. best vacation ever... i just smirked to josh, which may have been weird because i was not answering his question... he asked... are you really okay?

i got out of the thinking and and answered yes...

he rushed out and came with a tray with porridge.. oh , sweet . did he cook for me?

"your mother made this for you and left, i heated it up for you" he said..

GREAT WORK JOSH!!!

as i was laughing, my toe began to hurt...

i started crying in pain... but seeing josh in anxiety made me better. he went out and came back with water and pain reliever.. i got up to sit and he supported me, i ate the pill. and i suddenly felt unconscious.. i was beginning to fall, but that would hurt my head so bad...

josh understood this and pulled me close to his chest... i closed my eyes and fell onto him.. he held me... we sat like that for few minutes... his chest was ...warm.

i wish i could spent some more time, but it would be awkward. i raised my head from his chest. but he pulled my head back to his chest and held me tight in his arms . i raised my arm to encircle him. i could feel his heartbeat. it was fast, maybe he was nervous. i stayed like that. after sometime he got up and left the room without a word. what was happening.. why did he go abruptly? i was curious. i tried to get up but i couldn't. i suddenly twisted my toe and i screamed. josh came running to my room..

he was furious...

"why cant you stay still for one second, why cant you stop hurting yourself, why cant you stop making others worry about you, why do you make me come to your room frequently, why are you making it hard for me..."

I'm making it hard for you... i was shocked..

I'm sorry if i did.. you can leave me now.. i never asked you to stay ...leave...

he grabbed my hand " i didn't mean that, I'm falling for you every minute i spent with you... so you're making it hard for me.. what will happen if i cant live without you?... i cant fall for you but i cant resist!!!"

he stared right into my eyes... i went close and kissed him... he kissed me back... that force, that attachment, the love...

I could feel it.