How it started

As he was not sleeping well, not eating well and was in a constant state of arousal, eventually, he imagined what if Daphne acted the way other women did? This train of thought made him unwittingly pay attention to Theresa's behaviors around him and her body movements, imagining to himself… that it was actually Daphne.

Ezra knew his delusions were just that, delusions, but he was in such a poor mental state that, even if he knew that, it had become one of his ways of calming himself down. As such, he soon started getting lost in his imagination whenever he became especially stressed and sad. After each delusion, he would feel empty, but even so, his thoughts and instabilities were alleviated slightly.

Theresa had noticed his gaze and was overjoyed, she thought that Ezra was getting interested in her. Theresa knew that the relationship between the couple was rocky to say the least, as such, the more infatuated she became with Ezra, and the more she deduced that he liked her, the less guilty she felt about the whole ordeal. The more time passed, the more courageous she became. And this one time, while she was trying her best to approach him, she noticed the state of his lower region. As he was looking at her cleavage at the time, Theresa threw away her inhibitions and started to seduce him.

Ezra was still lost in his delusions and was unresponsive and expressionless. But since he did not push her away, Theresa's courage just swelled. Ezra was too frustrated to keep being lost in his self-depreciative feelings, as such, he allowed her to please him with her hands. As soon as she looked like she wanted more, he immediately put a stop to it by using his favorite excuse and said, "I'm sorry, I'm married."

As time passed, Theresa became more and more brazen and ended up performing fellatio on him on one occasion, but no matter how much she tried, she could never gain anything more from him. As Ezra did not provide her with any sexual gratification in turn, Theresa started to feel resentful of Daphne. She saw Daphne as nothing more than a title holder.

Daphne, in Theresa's eyes were nothing more than "the wife." And, in her mind, Ezra did not want to sleep with her because he was a gentleman who respected his wife even if he did not love her.

At present time, Theresa saw Daphne as a bitter wife that did not want to let go of Ezra, thereby going against her own happiness. Theresa looked down on Daphne and felt superior to her as she was aware that Daphne and Ezra had no intimacy whatsoever.

Ever since his first bout with Theresa, Ezra had become a raging workaholic. Maybe in an attempt to keep his mind away from the guilt of his actions.

Due to his inability to sort out his guilt towards Daphne and his slight guilt towards Theresa, as he felt he lead her on by allowing her to touch him, he was sometimes caught by surprise by sudden touches from Theresa when he would be lost in thought. As such, even if the two of them had not done anything too inappropriate in about two years, Theresa had still ambushed him with random intimate touches or kisses. He succeeded in avoiding being kissed on the lips, but his ears, neck and cheeks had not escaped Theresa's assault.

Considering how much he wanted to do these things to Daphne and how distraught with jealousy he would become just from imagining a man doing that to his wife, Ezra categorized what he was doing as infidelity. He was not an incapable man, he had avoided women all his life, yet he failed to do so with Theresa. It was something that brought him great distress, but his guilt in the situation and the unchanging attitude Daphne presented, made him be in a mental stalemate.

The most recent incident with Theresa had happened seven months ago. To a certain extent, Ezra had gotten used to avoiding Theresa's advances, but since he was not fully successful and he did have the random desire for human touch, it had been a struggle.

Ezra had now become aware of the fact that he had not truly looked at Daphne directly, in a long time. Instead, just like when he was first infatuated with her, he had been behaving like a creepy stalker, afraid to be found out.

This realization did not dampen his enthusiasm, though. So what if he did stupid things? So what if he had been immature?

You live, you mess up, you grow, you learn, and then you live on.