Lost of Humanity

My... my head hurts

My hair was dragged by a man. He was a tall light brown-haired man. He's outfit practically declares that he is noble.

Bruises covered me all over.

A dream? This... is... a memory... this damn memory...

The man smiled as he walked closer and closer to a door.

He finally showed his face. He was charming but his face was soulless. He smiled again, but this time I could tell that it was a twisted and sadistic smile.

"You're going to have the time of your life here, you filthy human" For some reason, his voice was filled with rage and pain yet he seems like he's gonna enjoy what's gonna happen...

Yeah, I'll make your smile so wide it'd kill you... no, you don't deserve death. I'll make sure you wish you never existed...

My body barely twitched

Damn it! Every time I close my eyes I come back to his moment and no matter what I do... I've never gotten past this moment without blood. I can't move... again.

The room led to lots of cells and at the end of the hall was a torture chamber

I wasn't wearing my normal armour or wearing her original clothes either... the clothing I was wearing was a dirty slave cloth. It was itchy and rough to the skin.

I was tossed into a cell with a girl. She was curled up in the corner mumbling something.

Eventually, she glanced at me with her blue eyes and turn around. Her balance was out of wack, but she managed to hold on to a wall. My head then started to stop spinning and I can finally pinpoint who this girl is.

The blonde hair... the blue eyes. It was Fay

"Amber... are you alright?" Fay said with a high pitched, gentle voice she always had.

"Yeah, I'll be fin-" I coughed up blood, but smiled to comfort Fay

Fay...

I fell down on a seat. It was a hard stone seat hanged by chains.

"You sure? You look messed up..." Fay herself looked the same but worrying about other's condition before her own is probably the most Fay thing she can do.

"Y-yeah"

Fay, I'm...

"I could try to heal you! Restore" Her last word activated a green transmutation circle at the tips of her finger.

"That would be nice"

"Healing isn't my speciality, but I'll try" The circle glowed brightly as the pain slowly disappeared from my body, but unfortunately... my scars didn't go with it.

"Thanks. You know I've never really talked to you since you seemed too good of a person. So for a person that barely talked to you, you're really nice" I tried to thank her but doing something I barely do was... hard.

"Don't worry. I think everyone could be good as long as they try to be good and I like those people. You might not be the nicest, but your straight and you don't lie without a really good reason. You criticize people because you care, you know that if they hope too much when they fail it's gonna hurt too much. I can never do that. So I admire you." Fay smiled with her innocence or... well kindness shown making me forget where we were for a moment.

"Please, don't... when we're about to die or something. Don't say you admire me, cause if you do... it'll make betraying you for my own life that much harder"

I... don't want such a pure gem to be darkened because of me...

"I'd probably give up my life anyways. You'll probably benefit the party more than I ever could. You're strong... unlike me"

Please. Stop. Talking.

All the sudden a hand grabbing the bar. It was that long brown-haired man.

He smiled and throw me out of the cage and dragged me. Tortured me... my screams... those sounds will haunt me forever. Every time he hits me I had to try to forge a metal layer over my skin. So it wouldn't hurt as much as it could've.

This probably happened to Fay too, but she wasn't able to block his attacks like I did

Just... wake up already Amber... I... I can't take any more...

Even if this is a dream... I remembered the pain. It was like I felt it. Every time I hear my own screams, I felt like the confidence I built up just falls apart making me want to break into tears.

At this point, my mind was about to break. Fay was the only thing that kept me human and sane. They had to joke around, keep their sanity... but one day...

The man came and said either me or Fay will be sold to a noble vampire man. He said we had a choice.

I stayed silent not knowing how much pain I'd have in another chamber. Fay saw my face. At that point, she was still the kind and caring soul of an angel. She volunteered.

I should've done something! Anything at all! Just... save her...

After that night, I didn't see Fay in that cage again.

About a week past. I started to get numb to the pain. "Her reaction wasn't as pleasant," the man said. Since the metal protectors kept getting thicker and thicker by the day. My numbness plus my metal layers resulted in me not feeling... anything.

When will this nightmare end?!

Before I knew it, I had small horns covered by my hair. I couldn't keep my humanity even if I kept just enough fragments of my sanity. I was sane, which meant I was aware of every cut put on her.

My sadness became rage and one day I broke out by only using my bare hands. I bent the iron bars on my cell leading to the outside world of the demon realm.

I swear, someday, somehow I'll find you... and you won't die... I will torture you... the most painful way I know how.