CHAPTER 29- what's love?

　With both eyes closed kalebize quickly shifted his face to her left and pressed his lips against her cheek, brushing her hair lightly with his left hand. his heart wanted much more but refused to take advantage of her being vulnerable, he never wants to hurt her. Sakashi didn't say a word and slowly opened her eyes to a narrow open. she rested her head on the side of his neck. the feeling of his kiss on her cheek sent shivers through her nerves, chills that made her whole body tremble lightly. "darling, If you want me to stop, tell me now I won't push your limits, " he whispered softly into her ear. Sakashi said nothing and only leaned into his neck closer. her breathing began to increase in speed, her heart raced faster and she felt a connection to him. She wanted to be as close to him as possible. However, she still kept a curiosity for Leemodo, at the moment she got distracted at kalebizes charming presence. when kalebize felt she wasn't hesitant, he slowly brushed his mouth against the hollow of her temple. "how about now?" he whispered again. with no response, He traced the line of her cheekbone slowly until his lips were against hers. Sakashi said nothing and closed her eyes wrapping her arms around his waist as she kissed him back.

Kalebize felt his desire for her rise but he knew how to hold back. he pulled away and sat up then began lifting her into his arms to prevent anything more. kalebize walked over to her bed and gently placed her down on her bed and whispered: "get some rest sakashi." But sakashi didn't want him to stop. she had immediately reached up to him, gripped his shirt and pulled him down to her, Sakashi pressed her lips gently back onto his. Kalebize's eyes widened as he almost lost his balance. His lips pressed against her lips once again causing his heart rate to beat faster. kalebize went to a loss for words as he pressed more against her mouth. He kissed her gently and carefully, only now kalebize didn't want gentle, he wanted to take her to a new place she never experienced with real love and intimacy.

kalebize, however, kept holding himself back, he forced his desire back and only gave her the soft passionate kisses against her lips. his hands gripped her hair gently as he pressed into her warm body as he laid above her. Sakashi still said nothing as her body shivered in nervous excitement. Kalebize began to think to himself about what is going to happen if he doesn't control his desire. What he wanted was not meant for right now, not after all this trauma she just escaped out of. But she gripped her fists on his hips, pulling him harder against her. Her body began to crave his body as she started to slowly kiss his lower neck. He moaned softly into her ear, then his arms circled her body, pulling her against him as he wraps his legs around her legs until they become tangled together, still kissing.

Unexpectedly, his hand drifted to her hip. It settled there and pulled her closer. She inhaled sharply as her body shivered even when She was against his warm chest, Kalebize started to lose complete focus as he became intoxicated with her smell. "Must he be so perfect?" she mumbled to herself under her breathe as kalebize kissed her gently around her neck and occasionally under her jawline. Kalebize began to slowly slide his right hand up her shirt and gripped her breasts. Sakashi then started to feel uneasy but didn't want to stop. Kalebize could clearly feel her body tense up with her hand against his chest intending to push him away, but instead, she ignored her fears and tried to relax her body. Sakashi trusted kalebize and believed he wouldn't hurt her.

He began nuzzling her neck with delicate kisses. before leaning up and whispers into her ear. "I can stop if your getting uncomfortable." Sakashi looked at him then urged herself to push away, but couldn't. Her fragile body began to tremble uncontrollably as the memory of her worse nightmare came to mind. Sakashi began to cry. Kalebize stopped immediately and hugged her. "I will stop Sakashi it's ok," he whispered into her ear. His head was angled slightly to the side until he leaned his forehead against hers and closed his eyes. "I'm not going to hurt you Sakashi. you mean to much to me for me to act like that," he whispered again. She was surprised to hear such kind and tender words. Sakashi felt safer and could feel herself falling in what she thinks love. She doesn't know what true love is and wants to find what real love is. with connected foreheads, Their breaths mingled. Her heart fluttered inside her chest as tears fell from her eyes. She gathered some courage to silently speak into his ear. "what is real true love?" she asked him.

Kalebize stayed pressed into her as his embrace got tighter around her. His eyes began to tear up as he takes a deep breath.

"what is true love you ask? well, it isn't a feeling. It's an action.." he whispered. Sakashi pulled away from him and pushed her hands against his chest forcing him to move away from her body. Kalebize sat up and got himself off of her and then gently say on the bed by her feet and looked at her. Sakashi pushed her self up until she sat up and leaves against the pillow. "so love is sexual intercourse?." sakashi asked based on how she understood his response. Kalebize chuckled and sighed. "no, that comes with it though. But love isn't just about that Sakashi. Love is.." he stops and looks up and thinks for a bit. "Love is being patient and not rushing into anything. love is being kind and tender even when it's hard. Love doesn't feel envy. it does not build up in pride trying to be cocky or jealous... It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrong and mistreatment. Love does not delight in evil actions but rejoices with the truth and happiness. It always protects, always trusts, always hope's, always perseveres. Love never fails or never gives up even when you feel like quitting..that's how I see love. All these years sakashi I only wanted what was best for you and what makes you happy. I always fought to protect you. I love you sakashi, all these years I never told you how I felt because I was scared. I'd fight and even die for you if it was necessary. Love is an action, a battle. Not a feeling. Sometimes love makes no sense. Sometimes we may never like the predicament we face. And sometimes love can even be hard and put us in an uneasy situation. It can even make us angry. But love never fails if it's real. It never gives up. Does that make sense?." kalebize told her with a passionate voice. Sakashi nodded and looked down. "loving your body is only part of love. But it's not what real love is. Love is ignoring that just to spend quality time with the person you love most. Intimacy is knowing you. Not just your body. So you see sakashi I would never move past your boundaries because I love you. If it's something you want in the future then it will happen. But don't think love is about that." kalebize whispered into her ear before hugging her again suddenly. Sakashi closed her eyes and leaned her head into his chest. "ok." Sakashi replied

Sakashi looked up at him. The mix of emotion she felt increased as she wanted more of him. Kalebize saw her eyes gazing into his and kalebize saw how sakashi became full of Lust and desire for him and how she was still confusing love to lust. However, before he could ponder about it further, he grabbed her wrists and yanked her into him and covered her mouth with his hungry and more harder kiss. As sakashi flew forward. She let out a slight squeal. As their lips pressed together, Sakashi felt like she was walking on air. It was magical to her and she forgot what was happening around her, the way his lips connected with hers felt right. His mouth was so warm, the pressure of his lips softer than here's. She only then opened her mouth with a soft moan. Sakashi felt her body tingle and crave his body again. She began to feel lustful and started to grip his inner thigh that caused Kalebize to jump slightly and immediately push her away. As he looked away from her he closed his eyes. "I'm sorry I can't go that far with you. Not till it's right at least," he told her gently. Sakashi looked down in disappointment.

Kalebize then looked back at her and cupped his finger under her chin to lift her face. stared deep into her mysterious eyes, he slid his hand and cupped her cheek that was glowing red. He smiled at her before he slowly leaned back into her kissing her once more. His other hand was shaking, his mind was repeating the same sentence over and over, "Don't do this... don't do this." But the sound of his heart was beating so loudly he couldn't concentrate. It felt like it was going to explode and combust into the fire.

His fingers began to gently run up and down her spine, sending shivers down her spine. With her cheeks still burning red she glanced back up into his captivating glossy eyes and began to narrow her eyes in a gaze. He pulled away from her lips and leaned down, resting his forehead against hers. Kalebize stared into her eyes and studied hers with intensity and love. His warm breath was felt on her face. Sakashi then quickly shut her eyes in anticipation. She let out a surprised moan as his soft lips captured hers again, causing her body to flush with more heat. His heat seemed to travel through her veins, warming her in pure excitement. Just as she felt a rush of bliss envelop her, making her heart desire more. Kalebize smiled and pulled away. She instantly sighed and looked down.

Kalebize leaned away from her and smiled. "I'm not going past your boundaries for now sakashi. If this is meant to be. It will happen.." he told her softly "besides, leemodo will be here for a session in five minutes.." he told her with a chuckle. Sakashi smiled slightly and looked down. Only now she's now even more unsure with love because she also knew she liked and was curious about leemodo. She closed her eyes and began to weep. "what's wrong? Kalebize asked in concern.

"what do I do if I think I love two people?. Kalebize immediately knew she was talking about leemodo and smiled. "that's why you are the one to choose who you know you truly love the most. It's ok sakashi I know you like leemodo. Whoever you choose I will be here for you. No matter your choice.." Sakashi felt convicted and guilty even knowing she has to choose who she really loves. She didn't want to pick one only to hurt the other. Kalebize smiled and kissed her forehead. "take your time. Don't rush into anything.." he told her before he walked out of the room and came to a sudden stop and smiled in embarrassment.

"things got a bit heated huh?." leemodo asked him as he leaned against the door.

"how long?" kalebize asked rubbing his eyes in awkwardness. " I was here since you were telling her about love." leemodo replied. Kalebize sighed. "sorry, best of luck for you." he told him as he pats leemodos shoulder and continued to walk. Leemodo smirked and shook his head and stood up straight then walked into the room.