CHAPTER 30- Unexpected moments

　Leemodo walked into the room and looked at Sakashi. Sakashi was still sitting up in her bed weeping because she didn't want to let kalebize go but also mixed with what had happened to her and couldn't understand why she even wanted to go further with kalebize. Sakashi was scared, confused and still hurting and wanted the pain to stop. She thought getting physical would take the pain away. but she was wrong, it was still lingering. Leemodo walked up to Sakashi slowly and sat in the chair next to her. "you ok?' he asked calmly. Sakashi nodded as she wept. Leemodo sighed and looked directly into her eyes and calmly spoke. "are you sure? doesn't look like you are to me." Sakashi looked at Leemodo and immediately looked down and kept weeping. as she cried; there was a deep pain to its sound and sight of it. like the pain was still a deep open wound that has never been cared for. Sakashi would clasp onto the bed sheets for support to keep her balance. as she kept weeping Leemodo sat there as he wanted to stop her pain. He watched her whole body tremble. Sakashi's sobbing was full of grief, trapped by the wave of her emotions, she had broken down entirely once again, Leemodo wanted to just hold her. when Leemodo noticed that all her defenses left her conscious he then leaned forward and used his right pointer finger to lift her chin up and turned her face to face his. "if you love kalebize sakashi then you need to tell him. if you're still hurting because of what had happened to you. then that's ok too, we are here to help you" Leemodo calmly told her. He had to fight back his emotions seeing Sakashi as a picture of grief, loss, devastation trauma and heartache. It was the face of one who had suffered. Then, just when she thought the breakthrough would come and he would take her pain away because she was so vulnerable, Leemodo inhaled and stood up. "I can always come back so you can have your own time to calm down. it's ok." Sakashi looked at him as she wept and shook her head and grabbed the bottom of his shirt. "please don't go, I'm sorry," Leemodo then looked at her tenderly and knelt down till he sat a crossed from her, grabbed her wrists and pulled her closer into him wrapping his arms around her. His embrace was warm, and his big, strong arms seemed very protective when wrapped around Sakashi's fragile body. The world around her melted away as she immediately squeezed him back, not wanting the unexpected moment to end. The hug was a simple hug of comfort, perhaps the fragile beginnings of love with someone else? The arms that held her felt soft, yet very strong. The feeling of her body so close to his chest soothed her and helped her calm down enough to start allowing her tears to dry. But within seconds he pulled away, his mind pondered in the excitement of a new possible relationship but with thoughts of kalebize still set him back from trying to move forward. he felt guilty like he was stealing someone else's girlfriend.

maybe there shouldn't be anything romantic between them he thought to himself. Leemodo sighed and closed his eyes. "are you ready for the session now?" he asked her calmly. But when he opens his eyes Sakashi leaps forward back into his arms with no hesitation to go into them. His comforting body had caused sakashi to remember that one moment she had with leemodo at chandlers' house. the way his body felt against hers also felt warm and right, the sound of his heart beating loudly brought her peace of mind. "can this just be the session?" she asked him quietly. Leemodo sighed and wrapped his arms around her gently and leaned his chin on top of her head as she leaned into his lap. "if it helps you then sure." he replied. "is it wrong to love two different people?" she asked curiously as shes trying to find her true feelings and what she truly wants. Leemodo smiled and gently replied. "it's not wrong but the hard part to realize is there can only be the one you truly love only.." Sakashi didn't speak a word and just laid in his lap.

He knew kalebize loved her beyond measure. but now he couldn't hold his feelings back. if he wanted a chance he is going to have to act now. Sakashi leaned back and looked at Leemodo as her eyes became glossy. she smiled "thank you." she told him. "thank you for what?" he asked her in slight confusion. "for dealing with my crying and for staying. I'm just scared of the future, that's all." she replied. Leemodo smiled and locked eyes with her's. His desire for her grew stronger and couldn't resist any longer. He leaned closer into her until their foreheads pressed against each other. he couldn't fight against the thoughts that were going through him. Sakashi's glossy eyes stayed locked with his. Her smell lingered his senses and he started to feel intoxicated by her. His eyes narrowed to a slant open as his mouth slowly opened and let out his heavy breathing as he leaned closer towards her lips.

Sakashi's heart began to beat as she felt the same way about him as she did with kalebize and wanted to learn leemodo as well. Sakashi angled her face closer to his and began to blush as his lips touched hers. Not innocently or gentle rather with more force as if he is going to lose her. Sakashi's heart began to flutter and all she could think about was her curiosity about him. however, Leemodo began to slowly kiss her like a tease. passionate and demanding. Sakashi didn't want to pull away but felt Leemodo gradually pull away as he felt her body tremble. Leemodo looked at her and noticed the face expression of gullibility, he could easily take advantage of her emotions. Leemodo smiled and wrapped his hand around her head and pulled her head into his chest. Sakashi leaned against his chest and listened to his heartbeat beating rapidly. Leemodo knew he should stop himself now before he would lose his self-control. But can't seem to ignore his feelings. Leemodo gently tucked his fingers under her chin and lifted her face back towards his and gently kissed her lips once more. her face lit up At this moment, her senses have been seduced and she can no longer think straight. "Sakashi" he whispers slowly into her ear, she let out a smile, her heart fluttering at his voice as she grips her hands on the sides of his hips. Leemodo continued to kiss her lips passionately. Sakashi's body began to slowly shiver in chills as she kissed Leemodo. then suddenly kalebize came to her thoughts and she felt guilty. But she kept kissing Leemodo passionately because she also felt the same feeling with Leemodo. Tears fell in confusion and caused Leemodo to pull away and wrap his arms around her waist pulling her close into him. "Its ok sakashi, I won't do anything.." he told her softly. Sakashi gripping his shirt and wanted more but doesn't understand why she can't stop thinking about how she likes two men. She wants to choose but she's lost in emotions. She begins to think the only way to choose is whoever makes her feel happier. But then grits her teeth pressing her forehead into leemodos chest knowing they both make her happy. Leemodo smiled softly as he kept his arms around her. " let's plan a date, one with you a kalebize and one with you and I.from there it should be easier for you to realize who you want to be with the most." he whispered. Sakashi didn't say anything as she laid in his arms. About 30 minutes past since Leemodo told her about the plans for a date. With nothing but silence leemodo held sakashi in his lap as he leaned against the wall sitting in the bed. He looked at the clock and glances back down at sakashi only to notice she had fallen asleep. He smiled softly and slowly stood up lifting sakashi's sleeping body along with him and turned his body towards the bed and gently placed her back down and pulled the covers over her. He let out a small side smirk and leaned down and kissed her forehead. He leaned back up and watched her sleep for a few seconds before he turned around and walked towards the door.