The nightmare

Tilting my head, I sat there frozen. I couldn't read that mysterious person's name, and I bet that Suga won't even let me see it. It was very much visible that as Suga was scrolling through the letter, he was holding on emotionless expression.

I don't know what to do, and a big part of me is filled with guilt. Although they're risking their life to protect mine, I hid something that, possibly, could be a very big thing to them. Then again, my curiosity also needed to satisfied.

"When did you get this?" Suga asked in a monotone voice with anger evident in it.

"I-I r-received it right before Taehyung barged into my room."

"And you thought it'd be a good idea to not inform us of this."

"I would have after finishing reading it. After all, this letter was addressed to me."

"Are being stupid or were you born stupid?"

"Why are you saying that? It wouldn't cause any harm to just open this letter."

"You don't have any idea about how dangerous this could be. Right? Listen well, you're just a spoiled girl, who'll do anything to quench her curiosity no matter how many are hurt."

"That was not my intention. I was just wanting to know his name and nothing more. It's always better to know your enemies, that's they say."

He sighed, replying, "Other than being miserable, nothing will you gain from knowing that. Remember, I am not as generous as Taehyung, and I'll carry out my mission, letting no hurdles affect me."

Mission, hurdle- those were the words that I hated the most currently, as they stung more than anything. They makes me realize that I am all alone with no one. Even though that might be the reality, accepting it is much harder.

His statement lead me to become speechless, and those eyes of his showed pure anger, maybe hidden with somewhat of concern. Then again, maybe the concern wasn't for me, but for the mission he was carrying out.

Out of millions of guys out there, why did my heart chose him to love? There is nothing good about him, but still I can't resist him. We're completely different; both at the different ends of the pole. I doubt he ever thought of me as that way.

"I am sorry. I will not do it again," I apologised.

His anger reduced back to his emotionless demeanour, and he went to sit at one of the corners of this room, hugging his sword. His actions confused me. Was he going to sleep there?

"Are you sleeping there?" I asked, receiving a silent treatment from him.

Not wanting to trouble him anymore, I ignored the fact and laid down on the bed, hoping that this sleep would bring in a nice dream. After all, dreams might be my only source of happiness these days.

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I was back again at my place with everyone running around as usual, trying to get their jobs done in time. My eyes fell upon the younger version of me, staring at Suga and a girl, Soo.

They both laughed freely somewhat causing the my heart to be squeezed in painfully. It could be said the same for the past me by judging from her expression.

Suga kept on laughing like I have never seen him, and it seemed that Soo was enjoying her moments too. They both looked like a couple from someone else's point of view.

Tears began to form at my eyes, and I could see is that tears were already dripping down the past me's eyes. She covered her mouth to control her sobs, and I, on the other hand, felt a terrible ache at my heart.

Although it's just a dream, it feels realistic, and this pain at my chest is unbearable. It hurts to see him having fun, laughing with someone, and someone wasn't a burden, duty, or obligation to him.

Just then, I could see myself in a room- my room. The room had dark and gloomy feel. There was someone laying down on my bed, crying tremendously. That someone was me.

This wasn't the first time I saw this. I saw this the first time I have met Suga and thought nothing of it. Right now, it feels as if though all the pain and suffering, the past me had to go through, is attacking me.

It becomes hard me to breathe each second in this room, and I would trade anything just to get out of here. My heart feels to be in someone's tight grip, and tears uncontrollably dripped down my eyes.

"Hey!" someone calling for me, released me from that nightmare.

I opened my eyes to see Suga standing in front of me with hint of worry, that disappeared soon after I opened my eyes, in his eyes. He stood straight, and I felt my eyes were wet.

"What's the relationship between you and Soo?"

It would've been better if he didn't pull away the letter from me and if I could've read the whole. Then at least, I might've been better at avoiding the painful fate.