Childhood (3)

Watching a mother and her trotting child in front of her, she was back to reminiscing her past childhood. With her mother abusing her and throwing insults to a younger her, she unconsciously clenched her hands tight. Some people are lucky, some are not. Some has great beginnings while others have the opposite. There is no use in remembering the past, but she couldn't forget, because that past was the cause of her banishment and the fuel in her revenge.

Alice has always wondered why her mother changed. She has heard of an incident that has happened in her household and can still remember bits of it, traumatized of the way her father has pushed her own mother's trachea while seeing her mother's face as it pales, but she has always pondered the thought that her mother really had done something vile that has caused her father to have deep hatred for the woman he once held dear. She was the cause of all the sufferings she had when she was a child… IS what the lecherous woman wanted her to believe all along.

Her mother has died of drug overdose when she was ten. It was a short funeral, and no one in her mother's side has attended. It was seemed like she was already forsaken by her own family, as well as her husband's. Though Grandpa has never scolded her mother, the latter knows the Old man was very disappointed in her, and it gradually increased as she wasted her life in abusing alcohol and drugs. She remembered that that time was personally the first time she was introduced to the woman who became her stepmother. Imagine that! Her mother was not even buried yet but the woman was already there, comforting her father that was not even lamenting for the death of his wife.

It dawned to her while staying abroad and after thinking how everything bad had happened to her that the woman had always been around, she just didn't notice. For a child who has just lost her mother, nothing is more important than a consolation of someone who cares. And the woman presented herself to her to be someone she really needed… A mother and a mother's love.

From that moment on, she was already in the clutches of the woman and was even like a puppy who is more than willing to eat the food that has fallen to the ground. She searched for a familial love and that was what the woman was offering…at first. A month after her mother was buried, (at least they had the conscience to wait for a month), her father remarried and the mansion was filled with people that portray as a whole family. The woman, Cathy Xi, has brought back a daughter, Cassandra Xi and a son, Colin Xi, aged twelve and eight.

She was so ecstatic that she now have a brother and a sister. She was going to be a big sister and at the same time, a little sister. The first year and a half was a lovely year for her, when she had someone to play with, and someone to go to parks and movies. She didn't feel lonely, unlike when she only had Nanny Rou to accompany her to school and parks. There was always people to eat dinner with, and a lot of her stepmother's friends has gone to play mahJong and poker in their house all the time. Her grandfather never visited but she would bring her new sister and brother to play at the main mansion once a week. The father that was always away has begun to stay at home more often and notices her again and would even give her allowance for school and drive them every morning before he goes to work. It was a great year and she has always wished that this will be forever.

Who would've known that her wishes can never come true.