Pain, Hurt and longing

Y-Young master, what are you saying?"

"My hand is wounded," Lu Xing yan spoke sternly.

"I can barely hold the chopsticks, so someone has to feed me. You're my maid right? So do as I said."

"Yes, young master." She took the bowl and started feeding him.This situation extended for a few awkward minutes.

Finally, he said, "I'm full," and stood up.She put the bowl aside and followed him to the study.

The place had been cleaned up already.He sat in the chair and began studying his documents.

"Young master, I will bring your antibiotic now. Is there anything else you require?" Lu Xing yan shook his head, so she bowed her head and left the room.

After a couple of minutes, she returned and served him the medicine.Lu Xing yan's gaze shifted back to the photo. "Miss Mixi."

"Yes, young master?"

"Imagine there's a person you care about. You want to meet, talk and take care of that person but you can't. If you try any of these things it will only bring them harm. What would you do in this situation?"He said .  

But his gaze remained on the photo the whole time.Ye Mixi was momentarily startled by his words. She followed his gaze and noticed Yan Shu's photo.

She knew of his sister but didn't know the exact details of her escape, save the fact she did so to escape her mother's wrath.

Lu Xing yan moved to their current home after Yan Shu ran away from the main mansion. Ye Mixi worked directly under him ever since then.She could see the pain, hurt and longing in his eyes.

"Young master, if you wish to talk to her then you can do it without her knowing it's you."His gaze shifted to her.

"How?"

"You could call from another number for example. If you don't want her to recognize your voice, there are various apps to change it. You won't be able to properly talk to her, but it should be possible to gauge if she's happy or not."

Lu Xiangyan nodded and looked back to the picture, so she took it as a cue to leave. He considered whether to take her advice or not.

Finally, he leaned forward, opened the desk drawer and took a phone from inside.As he typed her number — he knew it from memory — his heart beated ever harder, to the point it pulsed on his ears. Sweat formed on his forehead while his breathing sped up.

"Calm down."

He took a deep breath, wiped his forehead and leaned back on the chair.He finally pressed the call button.

It rang once, twice, thrice. Only on the eighth ring did she pick up.

"Hello?" said a sweet and soothing voice.

Lu Xing yan was too scared to think straight. He seemed unable to form any words, so he ended the call.

A smile lingered on his face despite the failed attempt. He had wished to talk to her for so long, but everything froze when he heard her voice.

He took a couple of minutes gathering his thoughts before finally calling again. It rang three times before connecting.

"Hello?" spoke the same melodic voice.The words got stuck in his throat.

"Damn it, who is this? Why do you keep calling me?" His mind went blank for a few seconds. 

"Sorry, wrong number," was all he managed to say before ending the call.

"Twerp, I could finally hear your voice again," he murmured with a smile and made a note to thank Miss Mixi later.

After this, he wrapped everything else he had to do, headed to the master bedroom and slept soundly.