[CHAPTER] 14 HEARTBREAK

Emily's POV

OH MY GOD!!! OH MY GOD!!! What just I said? How am I gonna explain this to him? There was a complete shock on his face. I can't believe what I have done!! I shouldn't let him know my feeling. 'No! No! What I have done!' I screamed internally because on my confession he loosened his grip on my waist and took few steps back. With his each and every step back it feels like he is ripping my soul from body and suddenly just like that his deep blue eyes which shows so many emotions few moments ago became blank again as usual and just like that he left me alone there by myself. My heart broke into million pieces, if he didn't like me or love me then why? Why? Why he confessed to me his feelings? Tears welled up in my eyes and started to roll down on my cheeks continuously.

Is he making some kind of joke or anything? How can he do this to me? How can he just leave like that? As I already told you that this place is my secret place I can do whatever I want so I just kneel down there where I was standing and cried my heart out because I can't stand his cruelness. My life has been completely messed up like shit and I can't figure out what the hell should I do with my life? Oh great! Now I started cursing also. Wow! I just couldn't control myself and my tears also. They are falling down on my cheeks nonstop. After embracing myself a long while I stopped crying because my eyes started hurting and there was no tears left as I thought. They puffed out like goldfish's eyes. Taking a few deep breathes to calm my nerves, I tried to stand up but my legs were too numb because of sitting in a same position for quite a while. I stood up from the ground and didn't feel my legs and they wobbled like jelly and just lost my balance. Great! I grasped and closed my eyes tightly and waited for the impact when my body hit the ground but it never happened. I felt two strong arms holding me around my waist and I prayed to God that it must be him. Please it must be him, the one who is holding me it must be him. I chanted this in my mind again and again, hoping that he would come back to look after me, so I slowly opened my eyes.

 To my great disappointment, it was not him. But to my great shock, there was a person who's holding me, is whom I expect the least right now. "Shawn?" I just whispered his name like a question. "Are you alright??" he asked while helping me. I took his support and stand properly but didn't let go of him because my legs still feel numb. "Yeah, I am fine." I answered his question in a hoarse voice because of crying and my tone become dishearten because I was expecting someone else here, to hold me like this, to be with me. "Are you sure? I don't think so…" he confirmed it again. "Yeah. What are you doing here?" I asked him because it is totally unexpected to see him here after all he didn't familiar with his new surroundings. We just walked over to the bench under the tree and I sat down there. "Actually, you left your phone in class so, I just came here to give it back to you…" he said while scratching his head a little. My brain starts working properly by now so I was curious of one thing and I asked him "How did you find me here? I mean, how did you exactly know that I am here? Is someone told you to look for me here?" I asked him so many questions in one go, I was hoping that may be it was Nate who send him here for me. "Actually, to be honest… I called your name few times when you left the class with Nathan but both of you didn't hear me. So, I just

followed you guys here. When I reached here, it seems quite inappropriate for me to just come here between you two and give your phone back to you. So, I just waited and waited and waited until now. Sorry, I overheard your

conversation with him… I am sorry, don't get me wrong. I wasn't on purpose…" he explained. So, he was here the whole time. "Then why didn't you come out when I was crying and console me?" I asked him back become a little annoyed. "I was thinking maybe you didn't like if I just popped out from nowhere. And sometimes, it's good to let your emotions out. You felt light after crying. You know…" he answered my question calmly despite that fact that I am being rude to him just now and he got a point actually. I felt very light.

"Yeah, you are right. By the way thanks for being here for me without letting me know…" I thanked him wholeheartedly. "So, do you want to talk about it? It's just fine if you don't. Sorry, you thought I am being nosy. But trust me, I am not nosy person" he said a little flustered in embarrassment. "No, No, you don't have to be sorry, its fine" I said. "You know, you have a very beautiful smile" he said with admiration. I didn't even realize that his flustered face brought a smile on my face in this heart breaking situation. "Thank you" I just thanked him because when I need a friend, he is here for me even we are not this much close but now I think we are closed enough to talk freely and share our happiness and problems with each other. He was there when Nate and I were confessing and he was there also when Nate left me alone, broken but he didn't came out because it made me really very uncomfortable. He was watching out for my safety all the time. When I couldn't protect myself from hitting the ground he came out and hold me from getting hit. He protected me like a shield. 'This guy is no longer a stranger for me' I thought to myself. "Hey, you zoned out. Are you alright? Are you sure you don't need to see a doctor?" he asked concerned filled in his voice. "No, no I am absolutely fine. I was thinking that we are no longer strangers. Right?" I asked him. "Oh My God! You think of me as a stranger until now. You didn't consider me as your friend. Ouch, it hurts so much to know the truth but I considered you a friend." he faked a cry and clutches his heart as it hurts too much. I laughed at his actions "You are so funny. Seriously!! A drama-king.!!" I said while laughing. "Drama-king. Ummm. Nice nick name, actually no one gives me a name before, you are the first one." He said. "Ohh!" I exclaimed. 'Now, it's going to be on another track' my inner conscience mocked at me. "Why?" I asked like as usual being a busybody. "Ohh! It's nothing. Actually I don't have many friends with whom I can be my true self. You know." he said with a small smile. "Yeah, I can understand. I also don't have many friends just like you." I flashed him my innocent smile unconsciously. And just like that we chatted for a while.

Nate's POV

I just literally don't know what had I done. I just couldn't believe, it was me who just messed everything up. I thought, today I'll definitely confess to her my feelings and I exactly did what I thought. But when she confessed her feelings my mind just got blank. I didn't expect this in my dreams let alone in broad daylight while I was wide awake. She returned my feelings exactly the way I wanted. I wanted her to feel the same about me as I feel about her. God! She loves me. I couldn't believe this. How can this be even possible? How? Even I didn't show her any emotions until today when I confessed to her. I am the happiest person in the whole world because she loves me. The girl I loved since when I didn't even know the meaning of love, also loves me. Wait! What have I done when she said those three magical words I am dying to hear, "I-I just left her alone without saying anything" Oh God! What have I done? How am I supposed to tell her that I just got blank at that moment and don't know how to react so, I left. How can I be this much of a jerk? I know by actions I hurt her very much. I was the reason of her pain. Shit! I raked my hands through my already messy hair in frustration. I should have made myself clear to her that I really love her. She is the only girl in my heart this whole time. I have to fix the shit I have done. It took me hours to realize what shit I have done and how to fix this up? So, I let out a deep breath before going back to her because I know she won't go anywhere else in this situation. I made my way towards the ground and when I reached their, what I saw made my blood boil. Shawn and Emi were there sitting on bench while chatting happily. Shawn said something which made her laugh wholeheartedly and she behaves so carefree with him. And I swear I just lost it when he clutches his heart and faked a cry. I just marched towards him, it took me few minutes to reach there because I was watching them from quite a far.

When I got there I just grab him by his collar and started punching him on his face. I took them by surprised because they were not expecting me here. "OH MY GOD! Nate, what are you doing? Just let him go. Nate stop it." Emi is on verge of crying and told me to let him go continuously. She grabbed me by arm and tried to push me away from him. It angered me more. "What were you thinking you are doing here with her? Tell me what were you thinking to make her laugh? She is my girl. Do you get that? No one have the fucking right to approach her. Do you get it?" I told him through gritted teeth but didn't stop punching him. I landed don't know how many punches on his face nonstop but this bastard didn't even once tried to dodge or stop me. Is he have some fucking death wish today? I thought and stop punching him because Emi pushed me away from him. Her eyes are swollen and she had tears in her eyes right now. Fuck! I made her cry again.

 I just raked my injured hand through my hairs and I felt pain but at that moment I totally forgot about my pain. "What the hell do you think you are doing?" she shouted at me for the first time in my entire life because of this freaking asshole. "Are you trying to murder someone? Who do you think you are saying that I am your girl? You are the one

who left me alone when I told you about my feelings. You made a fool out of me. You just messed everything up, Nate. You did it!!" she shouted on top of her lungs at me. Her breathing get heavy and she is panting very hard. "Hey! Hey! Stop it. Calm yourself. Listen to me babe, just once, listen to me." I tried to calm her and try to explain myself but she didn't want to listen to me. "Calm myself? How can I suppose to calm myself in this freaking situation? You just left me alone and when I need you, you were not there for me. He was the one who stayed here the whole time with me without even letting me know. He came out when I was going to hurt myself by hitting the ground. He was just trying to cheer me up in this messed up shit. But you what did you do to him? You just came back from nowhere and start to beat the shit out of him." When she finished she was crying. I tried to hold her by her shoulder and apologized "I am really sorry babe. I am sorry but at that time I got blank when you told me about your feelings. I didn't know how to react. It scared the hell out of me what if it was a dream. It felt so realistic and when I realized I came back immediately. And I lost it when I saw you with him. I sincerely apologize to you too Shawn. I overreacted." I apologize to them but she just shrug my hands off of her shoulders and help Shawn to stand up on his feet and left with him. Now I know how it felt when the one you loved so much left you alone. I just stood there looking at their backs. I've messed everything up. I just left from there and drove my car on full speed and reached my apartment to calm myself. I hissed when I raked my injured hand in my hairs. I saw I injured it pretty bad. My knuckles were bleeding and swollen also. I just bandaged it and laid down on my bed feeling really exhausted physically and mentally also. And I just laid there thinking about today's shitty events.