chapter 16

"Congrats!" that is the words greet me as I step my feet on the ground of the school. I do my daily routine as they greet me. I just nod and smile. Almost 90% of the students say it but my best friend still not saying those words. I still can't see her. This is new.

"Hey, Mr. Sanchez is calling us." Thea said as she saw me. I just nod and give her a sign I will go. I look around my eyes to search Amy but different person reach my eyes. It's Julius. It seems he is shouting with someone. I walk silently through his direction.

"It must be me!" he shouts. His lively voice suddenly turned into aggressive one. I hear the crack of tiles. He is hurting himself!

"NO… you played her." The other voice said. It is familiar to the previous one voice.

"You play her feelings." The monotone suddenly turns into throb. My heart starts to pump hard. I know, the idea I have right now is wrong but I can't stop thinking that there is possibility, this is right.

"No... I'm not the only one. Heh. We both play her.-"I don't know but I think they are pertaining to me. I can feel it. *dug dug-dug dug-dug*

"-we play lene..." by that, I face them. I almost melt on what I saw. I can't feel anything. This can't be. So all this time?

"Lene/lene!" they both utter. I look at them blankly. But deep inside, I'm drowning. I'm already drowning.

"So, who are the real you?" I utter. I may be utter it bravely but deep inside, I'm broken into pieces. I look at them. They are both wearing the pleasant face. They are both look alike.

"L-lene?" The lively voice utter. I look at him.

"So I think you are Julius, the funny one." I point my index finger to the other one.

"And y-you is leve. I think that is the reason why you don't want me to call you Julius because all this time you are not Julius.-"my voice is now cracking.

"So, who is the first person who helps me? The first person I first met?" I ask. No one of them answered. I crumpled my fist. Heh.

"m-me/me!" they both say. I sight. I just walk away from them. Then, it suddenly turns into run. I heard them shout my name but I don't bother to stop and face them.

"Where have you been?" Llieon ask. I just shrug. First, love first heartache. How funny.

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The next morning I prepare myself. I still don't talk to Amy. I can't see her after that day. That day. Shit! I must fix the problem I have towards Amy. She is the most valuable for me. I don't say what I done with her. I must say it. I go to their classroom to search her but she is not there. Strange. I go to the cafeteria but she is still not there. While walking, I saw leve. I know its leve because of the serious face. His face suddenly changes into soft side as he saw me. I ignore him. It is still painful.

"Amy!" I shout as I saw her. I shock on what I see as she turns into my way. No it can't be.