Yin or Yang

'Am I the villain here?'

That question bogged me the entire day and I haven't said a word to Craige since we had that conversation this morning.

He was telling me that what I was doing was not right.

That I was not being considerate by keeping it from the teachers. 

That I was being savage for encouraging them to do worse things.

[Savage… my word, not his.]

And after an entire day of contemplation and silently reflecting on my intentions, I've finally arrived at a conclusion. 

Guilty as charged.

I admit. I really was guilty of enticing them.

I did want them to do worse things. I wanted to see the extent of their capabilities. To see if they're the same species as those people responsible for what happened to me in the past.

I didn't know the reason for that strong desire until I thought about it.

And when I finally found my answers, I could only scoff in disbelief.

I wished for them to be the same species.