Memories

'Boommm'

'Rumbleeee'

An powerful explosion followed by the rumbling of the earth shakes the world around me. A cloud of dust covers everything making sight almost impossible. Looking in the direction where the mass of energy hit the soft grass nothing more than a scorched crater can be seen. Soon the dust started settling allowing me to see the result of my attempt.

Despite de seemingly high devastation created by the explosion, no ripples can be seen left in the air. If these was an illusion, at the very least some clues would have been left behind by that attack, but there is nothing to be found.

In reality, the moment I started gathering energy I realised this is not an illusion. Why is that? Well, because an illusion can only affect the surroundings but it definitely can't mangle with the power that is inside my body and, at this moment, exactly that power is what confirms for me that something unbelievable must have happened yesterday, or, to be more exact, the lack of it.

The previous attack should have been at least a thousand times more devastating but the reality is that nothing special happened. Analysing my body I can confirm that all my energy is missing completely and in its place a different kind of power can be found.

In reality, I can feel that this new energy is not something to be trifled with but, in the same time, it can't even be compared with the brute amount of power that I previously had.

"Just what the hell happened yesterday?"

I don't understand why I can't remember anything. It's like the previous day never happened.

Now that I think about it, I don't remember the day before yesterday either. Or the day before that… Wait a second…

Sitting down on the green grass I close my eyes and leave my conscious surf through my memories.

At this point even I can't keep my calm any more. My memories core, the place where all the past events are recorded, an ancient treasure crafted millions of years ago, is gone. It's like it have been stolen but I know that is impossible by the simple fact that I am still alive. That memories core is something that I got a long time ago, when I was still young and which helped me reach the pinnacle by making sure that I never forget any technique or ability that I learned. Furthermore all the details of everything that I ever been through has been engraved in that place.

Of course I still have my personal memories that are stored in my spiritual consciousness but those are not that detailed. When you live for tens of millions of years, unless you use a special technique or object to save your memories, you end up forgetting a lot. No one can store that many details in the spiritual consciousness alone.

"Huuuuuhhh!?!"

When I try to explore my own spiritual consciousness memory centre, what awaits me is stunning. Fragments, like the shards of a broken mirror, fills my memory centre. There is not even one complete memory in sight. The fragments gravitate in a spiralling shape that looks to be spiralling to infinite. My consciousness followed the spiral hopping to find at least one intact memory but in no avail.

The further I go, the younger the memories become. I've already passed through over ten million years but if you were to compact all the memories so far you would barely obtain a seven hours long video.

Soon I reach the beginning of my life. A million years. One hundred thousand years. Ten thousand years. One thousand years. My hope that I will find any kind of intact memories starts crumbling. It's like my entire life has been taken through a shredder, the remains burned and the ash dumped back. There is nothing left. I don't know what happened to me to end up like this but I am glad that at least my personality is still there.

"Or is it?"

If all my memories are gone and only fragments remain, how can I be sure that I am still… Well, myself!?

Reaching the end of the spiral, right when I was about to lose all my hope, something unexpected happens. At a point, like a line has been drown in space, all the fragments are no more at in their place complete memories can be found. Looking carefully this are my memories from when I was 17 years old.

"But why that age exactly? Did something special happened back then?"

Asking myself this question I start looking through the intact memories.

Peaceful days of feeding the animals while watching TV, having fun with a small device that was called back then a Mobile Phone, talking with my parents about the first contact, about the newly arrived alien race and all their technology. Slowly I start to remember more and more like it all happened yesterday. I remember the alien race known as the Sirathrunds discovering that the Human race has great potential into awakening. Then there was the vaccine. Everyone got it, including myself. Nanotechnology was used to modify our body in order to facilitate Awakening.

Soon more and more humans that could connect to the astral energy appeared in the masses. And then, less than three months since I got the vaccine, I became one of the Awakened. I could feel power flowing through my body, merging with my blood and bones and making me strong beyond compare. My Awakened element was Chaos. Unfortunately I was not able to control my own power, my own element. I started rampaging like a wild beast without any restraint.

What happened next does not need an explanation. Lets just say that I was not the same after it all ended. My irrational mind was filled with the obsession of revenge on the accursed race that brought that vaccine on our planet.

Unfortunately all the memories afterwards are in pieces but, somehow, I know that back then I've done a lot of things that I am not proud of in pursuit of power. I've killed many, innocents and guilty alike in order to fulfil my obsession.

To be blunt, this is not a chapter in my life that I can be proud of but the past is absolute and nothing can be changed now.

Going deeper in the river of memories I look at my previous life and I start to understand one thing: I am still myself. Maybe a little less mature and with no will of vengeance left inside me, but still myself.

At the end of the river of memories another surprise awaits me. A small scroll with some delicate writing can be seen. Looking at its content my once muddled mind become clear once again and a look of understanding flashes through my eyes.

"So that's how it is!"

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Another day passed. Things are quite clear at this point although it's quite hard to believe all of this. Despite everything that I've lost, I am not even a little upset. More than anything my mood right now can be described as good.

"Heaven's may shatter but my will shall be eternal."

In the past those words allowed me to strive forward through anything and everything. At one point they became quite useless as all my hopes and dreams were shattered by the limitations of the world itself, but now I'm in a new world, with a new body and new goals in mind.

Well, let's summarise what I've discovered about my self and about this world so far:

- my appearance has changed and is similar to my old 17 years old self. Fortunately my personality doesn't look to match the me from my memories. To be honest I would be afraid to unleash that broken bastard that I used to be back then with my current level of power. Unfortunately it looks like I might be slightly more impulsive that my normal self and certain 'cough' urges 'cough' are back.

- all of my memories are in pieces and the details are impossible to figure out. It's like watching a photo with a 144 pixels resolution. You might be able to figure out what is happening but you won't be able to observe the details.

- This world is FAR more stable that my previous one. If in the past I could open wormholes through space with a single though, now, no matter what I try, there is not even a tiny crack appearing anywhere.

- My power is a long shot from what it used to be but the quality of the energy that I posses is in a different realm.

- All of my techniques and abilities (with a certain exception) as well as my knowledge of formation, forging, enchanting and so on are gone. I still posses some random pieces of introductory informations but nothing to brag about.

- The seal that I placed a long time ago on my soul and body in order to control 'that' is no more which means that I have no choice but to use the old method in order to keep my sanity in check.

Well this is a short summary of what I've discovered so far. I bet there are many other things that are out there waiting for me but for now there is a far more pressing matter at hand: I need to find civilisation. But where?

"Well I should go and explore this world now. It's not like the civilisation will come to me, right?"

'THUMP'

" ... … … "

" Well, look at that! "