Dream or Reality

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Warning: mention of rape, graphic description of scenes.

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Once I woke up and got out of bed I noticed that my room was bigger then normal, my bed was wider, my room was also designed differently.....wait am I still dreaming? I am so confused right now.

"Lilith come downstairs and help you dad out in the garage Hunny" said a women's voice

I headed towards the voice which led my to a kitchen however it wasn't like the kitchen I had from where I live, it's all made out of stone and the walls looked to be made out of rocks hell the whole house was made out of stone, where the hell am I?, no, what the hell am I dreaming about?

"Oh there you are Hunny..... hun why haven't you fixed your hair?" Asked a black robed woman

"Umm ... I forgot?" I replied

"Oh you always seem to forget something Hunny, now off you go to help out your dad" she said

"Um... where's the garage again?" I asked

"Pfft Hunny it's behind the house, you didn't lose to much blood when you gave birth to Ruka Hun to forget where the garage is hahaha" said the women

WAIT WHAT! I gave birth to Ruka.... huh!? When? I am really confused now.

While I was still in my thoughts the women had literally brought me to the garage , I was out of my thoughts when I heard a squeak from a metal door, when I looked in front of me I saw a very tall man dressed in a hunters outfit with a little baby in his arms wrapped in a black and red blanket.

"Ah there you are Lilith Luka and I were waiting for you to help us with Ruka we don't know why but, she hasn't been eating anything" the man said

I just looked at him then at the child that apparently I gave birth to, I grabbed the little baby and walked into the garage where I saw Luka sitting down in a chair looking worried until he saw me with Ruka.

"Ah there your are baby, our little one won't eat we have tried everything however she won't eat" said the Luka look a like

"Well that's because I have been asleep and she need milk, she is a baby after all" I said

Wait what? How do I know that I ..... I don't know how to take care of a baby let alone know what to do with one.

"Th....Lili....Lilith!" Said a distant voice

"Lilith it's time to wake up hey" said another voice

When I heard the voices I followed it and then closed my eyes and opened them, when I opened them I saw Ruka sitting on my belly, Luka was holding my hand, well basically everyone was around me.

"Um .... Hello?" I said questioning if I am actually awake or still asleep

"Mama why did you hurt yourself?" Asked Ruka

I just looked at her, sat up in bed then turned towards my Aunt, brother and sister and asked a question.

"Aunty Rose, Luna and Shadow please be honest with me did I ..... did I actually receive Ruka as a birthday gift or is there something you guys aren't telling me or I forgot?" I asked

"Of course you did why would you ask that" the three of them said in unison

"Oh um.. well I had a weird dream that I gave birth to Ruka and Luka and I were married, there was also this women wearing a block robe and a really tall man in a hunters outfit" I said

No one said anything until grandma spoke up.

"Dear did the women in the black robe say anything?" Asked grandma

"No just that I had lost a lot of blood giving birth to a baby which was Ruka" I replied

"I see" she said

"Why?" I asked

"The woman in the black robe... haaaa, I should I word this so you can understand it, well for starters that family you were with was your past life, so the people there were you but your past life and family" said grandma

"I see...okay that's good to know I guess" I said still confused

"Well anyways how about we head to the kitchen to eat hmmm we also have a very special guest" said mom

I just looked at my mom weirdly however as we were all walking down the stairs I was having a bad feeling about the guest, and rightfully so because as soon as we got into the kitchen I felt my blood boil, my body shifting, my heart ripping out of my chest and my emotions leaving me because in that god damn kitchen was the fucker I once believed to be Shadows, Lunas and my father sitting on a chair eating with a smile on his face talking with Rocket.

"What the hell is he doing here, have you forgotten what he did to me?!" I screamed and questioned them

"Ah Hunny I see your awake" he said with joy

"Don't Hunny me you damn bastard!" I screamed

"Sweetly that's not how we treat our guests" said mom

"Guests! He's lucky I haven't killed him yet" I replied

"No hunny why would you kill your father?" Asked the man who tortured me for years not to mentioned raped me as well

"Your not my father, you never were and never will be you vile disgusting human being, do you enjoy what you have done to me for so many years? Oh god is that why your here to take me back with you so you can continue to do those vile things to me again? You sick FUCKING BASTARD!" I screamed on the top of my lungs

"...." he was silent for a moment then a smirk appeared on his face

"What am I not allowed to do those things to my wife?" He said smirking

"W-what w-wife didn't you call me your daughter a few minutes ago?" I asked

"No you heard wrong I said wife" he said proudly

At this point I was done talking and longed at him and began to tear away his skin as he screams for me to stop, all I could hear were his screams, his skin tearing, his bones breaking, the sound of him hitting the floor and yelling from my so called family telling me to stop however I couldn't or rather I didn't want to I wanted to get rid of his existence forever, the memories of him touching me in places that a child should never be touched, the way he looked at me everyday, the way he would walk past me in his home and the way he smiled every time he did also the fact he had naked photos of me in the bath or shower from my younger years up till the day before we left and it just made me even more enraged. Once I was done with getting rid of him I looked up at my so called family and with a loud growl said that they were the worst for letting him in here when I suddenly felt a sharp pain coming from my wrists but, when I looked there was nothing there, then I realized that I was dreaming still however I was confused because how did I fall asleep woke up in another dream and in another so many questions and no answers, as questions started to fill up my mind I started to get lightheaded and very sleepy and before I knew it I had fallen asleep. When I woke back up again I was in my bedroom and I could hear chirping of birds from outside my window, I looked around my room to see Luna sleeping on the couch I have in my room, Luka was sleeping next to me and Ruka was sleeping in between us.

"Is this a dream as well or reality?" I whispered the question to myself

"Ah Lilith your awake?" Called a still sleepy Luna

"Wait can you call everyone here please" I asked with a hand out I front of me

"Um sure hold on" she said

There is only a couple ways to check if this is really is reality I thought to myself, once I was done talking to myself I heard Luna call me.

"Lilith their here" she said

I nodded and woke up Luka and Ruka then turned towards everyone, who just looked at me confused as hell.

"Okay ..... I need to make sure this isn't a dream, in order to do that I am going to ask you all questions and you must answer them okay" I said which got nods in return

"Okay question number one which goes for all of you, if the man that raised us and did the things he did to me asked to see me what would you do?" I asked

"We would kill him on the spot" they all replied together except Ruka since she is little still

"Second question do I have scars on my body if so how many and if so then from what?" I asked

"You have one from me/Ruka" my grandparents, parents, Ruka, Luka and Rocket answered

"You have five, one on you left leg from falling out of a tree, one behind your neck from falling into a river, one on your left shoulder from the trampoline, one on you left knuckle from punching a wall while in a fight and the one on your back from Ruka" answered Luna and Shadow

Everyone except my brother and sister looked at me with concern however I brushed it off and continued my questioning.

"Do I have a mark from a mate of so who is my mate?" I asked

"You have a mark and your mate is Luka/me/papa" answered everyone

"What's with the questions thou?" Asked mom

Before I answered my mother I lifted my sleeves and saw the bandages then recalled that I had harmed myself and fainted, I then looked up at them and told them why I was questioning them, I was then smothered with hugs and forehead kisses. After we spent an hour talking about my dreams we headed towards the kitchen where in my one dream I ripped that man apart till there was nothing left of him, I then sat down at the counter while my dad and brother made breakfast for us all to eat, as we were waiting I was fixing Rukas hair since she did wake up an hour ago, my hair was in a messy bun so it was fine. My mother, Luka, sister, grandma and Rocket were sitting in the living room watching tv waiting for breakfast to be done when my father asked if I can quickly go out back to grab some eggs since he forgot that we didn't have anymore in the fridge. I went out back to our chicken coop and grabbed a few eggs then headed back inside as I was walking back I saw Luka walking towards me with a worried expression, once he was standing in front of me he lifted me up and carried me princess style back into the house and then into the kitchen, my father and brother also had a worried expression on their faces, I didn't know why until I felt something wet on my wrists and left leg.

"... why do you got to phrase it like that author?" Asked Lilith

"... because I am running out of ideas, and I can why?" Replied the author

"You know you could just say 'I replied' right I mean you are the one writing the story" she said

"... I guess also why do you break the forth wall? Or third wall or whatever the phrase is" I asked

"Because I can" Lilith replied

"…..fair point" I replied

"Ye" she replied

"Now back to the story!" I said

As Lilith had gotten up from the chair to go get the eggs her wounds had reopened and she didn't notice it only Luka, her father and brother did which is why Shadow asked Luka to go grab Lilith before she faints again. Lilith hadn't even noticed that her cuts and wounds had reopened, once she gave the eggs to her dad, Shadow and Luka took her to their infirmary to tend to the wounds, as they were tending to the wounds so many thoughts were going through her head she was thinking about so many things that she didn't realize that Shadow and Luka were done and staring at her.

"What?" She asked confused

"You didn't notice the wounds bleeding did you?" Asked Luka

"Um….. no" She replied

"Lilith you need to start paying attention to yourself as well, you know this" said Shadow

"I know but, it's hard" Lilith said

"Even so you need to try and be more aware " said Shadow

"I'll try however no promises" Lilith said

"As long as you try then we won't say anything" said Luka

"Okay" She said

The three of them left the infirmary and headed back to the kitchen with the eggs and gave them to my father.

"Thank you Hunny also are you okay now" asked my father

"Yes thanks to Shadow and Luka" I replied

"That's good, now go call everyone else please and thank you" he said

"Okay" I replied

I went into the living room and turned off the tv then looked at them and said that breakfast was done, it turns out that we already had eggs it's just needed to be refilled again. After breakfast grandma, mom, aunt Rose and Rocket asked me to meet them in the training grounds to train more in my forms and to learn all about controlling my emotions since I tend to lose sight of my surroundings and lose control of my emotions a lot.