Who We Are

"Xilo." "Xelfia."

They both spoke the names they had come up with together at the same time. They had gone back and forth for hours on end to come up with what they thought suited them best and this is what they came up with in the end. Neither of the names had any special meanings or symbolism behind it like a lot of other names might have but that didn't necessarily stop them from adding such things in the future. Their names were a blank slate and could be anything they wanted them to be and a maybe a symbol of a new beginning just like they wanted to have so in tandem they let their names follow the same pattern.

New and blank.

If they ever changed their names in the future or if they even would they wouldn't know until something happened but for now they finally had something to call themselves and help bring their individuality out. Which were Xilo and Xelfia.

Upon hearing each others names for each other it took a couple of seconds to settle in for them and for them to gather their thoughts on how they felt on such things. The first of the two to gather their thoughts was Xilo in the end. He didn't dislike it all in fact and it was something short and simple well also Having hints of a connection with her name so he didn't mind. On the other hand Xelfia took the longest to gather herself but that was because unlike Xilo who understood the concept of names and such things and how they worked while she didn't quite understand them fully but that didn't mean she was clueless about them either and in the end she came to like her name because it was given by Xilo and similar to his. Unlike Xilo he added other things to his answer so in the end she was more straightforward with her thinking.

"So Xilo is it..I like it, Thanks"

With that he looked up to face her head on and gave her one of the most gentlest looks he could muster at the moment and smiled. For him he never had something like a feeling of belonging and the people around him never showed such emotions or feelings too. They didn't even bother to give him a name and just left him nameless. He could of given himself a name yes but he felt like it defeated the purpose of what they were suppose to represent and symbolize so he forgoed such a thing and kept it blank and now he finally had found someone to give him a name and that would stay with him. He didn't know how long it would last or if it would ever change but in his heart he would never let it go even if it killed him. It meant a lot more to him them some people and probably even Xelfia herself realized to the point where he even started to break into tears and started to cry.

Over his long life he always had strong emotions and feelings but in the end were always kept suppressed by his surroundings and himself and in the end he never really showed them to the point he even thought he lost some the strength behind them and some themselves like crying because he had only done it a couple of times in his life and the last time he did such a thing was over 10ish years ago but here he was at almost 18 years old breaking down and crying like a baby after so long. Maybe he broke or maybe he finally had the chance and opportunity to relax and let go for once in his life or maybe all the the pressure of the events that happened affected him more then he let on he didn't quite know. He just continued to cry.

Xelfia was going to reply to him after hearing his response on his name but before she even could she noticed him smiling at her full of happiness it quickly turned into him seemingly crying. At first she was shocked at such a sudden switch in Moods and didn't quite know if he was actually crying until he completely broke down and ended up burying himself into her chest. When he did that it slightly startled her but she quickly let it go and just let her hands lay at her sides not quite knowing what to do herself. She had watched and over and seen quite a few different sides of Xilo but at this moment she thought she was seeing a ghost. Xilo had never shown such a sight to her before and she never even thought he could or would.

While he rarely showed a gentler look in the past to her. It was never like it was a moment ago and the rest of the time he was usually more stoic so to see him cry like this was a surprise. So all she could was just let it happen really.

"Umm...uhhh..are you okay..?"

"I'm F-fine just...give me a minute."

With that she let him stay there and continued to look at him for a good half an hour until he finally stopped crying. After finally being done crying he was finally a lot more clamer then before and in fact he was even slightly happier than before. Like he was given a temporary release from whatever was shackling him down but he relished in the feeling. It was something he had never experienced in his life so far and he hoped to be able to feel it more and other similar things. He was slowly getting closer to what he wanted.

"Haha sorry about that I hope I didn't scare you too much their Xelfia. It looks like I just needed some time for myself, Now what were you going to say before that happened?"

"It's okay I just wanted to say I was glad you liked the name I chose for you and that I liked the name you gave me as well, It's not a big deal that I had to wait, I'm just glad you're alright you had me worried there for a second."

"My bad, I just got really happy with you giving me a name that's all, Though a little to happy."

"Did you really like it that much, isn't it just a name?"

"To others it might be just a simple thing and maybe you don't understand it because you haven't been around people more but to me it was a lot more than just something like a name that we gave to call to each other and for that I really do want to thank you one more time, so thank you..Xelfia."

Seeing his serious looking face as he stared at her and the tone of his voice she noticed a lot more with his words how much such a thing really did mean to him and for that she was really happy that she ended up agreeing to give each other "pseudo" names. Even so seeing him look at her like that caused her to start feeling shy and ticklish all of a sudden like she was being directly tickled by Xilo himself. Having said that she didn't dislike it at all and wanted to feel it even more even if it did make her feel more docile than she usually would be.

"Well now that we've gotten that figured out it's time to think and decide about what's the next course of action Xelfia.

Saying that he smiled at her while she nodded and got herself back on track.