My Heart and Seoul (11): His Warmth...

We had headed back home to see Seohyun already there. All together we could fit our stuff into four or five suitcases not including Seohyun's special tea maker and some toiletries which we have two boxes for. We both share a fondness for tea bordering the fiendish levels. I got started on toiletries and general bath items whilst Seohyun was in her bedroom and Lishi took the kitchen.

It took us a good two hours getting everything packed in suitcases and out into the two boxes we had. Afterwards we piled into Seohyun's car and waved goodbye to her little apartment.

"Aw I'm gonna miss walking down to the coffee shop here." I said pointing to the coffee shop two doors down the road pouting sadly.

"There's like eight on each road you won't miss it anytime soon." Lishi laughed at me pouting. But the grandpa running the place was adorable. He kept giving me a cookie when I ordered coffee.

We stopped at the new place a good 15 min away and started taking up our stuff. We now live on the third floor of an apartment block so we took quite a while lugging everything up. There were no elevators just stairs so we had to shove everything up without the help of an elevator. But after a few minutes we got up everything and Seohyun went to park her car in the lot.

"Wow look it's all ours." I said walking in to the living room. I felt the nice rug that was so so soft on my feet as soon as I kicked off my shoes.

"I know it looks so fancy I love it." Lishi said looking around as well. It was a very sleek modern, elegant looking place. Perfect for us.

I put some new sheets on my bed and started putting away kitchen stuff checking the time. It was only 6:30 so we had time before Jaehyun and whoever he's bringing came over. Instead of ordering pizza I decided to cook and make korean fried chicken, Lishi made some biryani in two batches one was extra spicy the other was milder. And we also made some mango and strawberry slush drinks, we experimented with the colour so now half are bright red and the others are orange.

Checking the time again it was 8:29 so I decided to get out of my clothes into something else more comfortable. I wore my regular skinny jeans and threw on a hoodie from my hoodie collection. I refreshed my make up for a sec and threw up my hair in a messy bun. Right as I was applying my lip balm I heard the door ring.

"I'll get it!" I said walking out. My room was closest to the door so I got there- quickly checking my breath so it doesn't snell- and opened the door for them.

"Welcome to our humble little abode." I opened the door wide to let them in. In walked Jaehyun, Daehyun, Minho, Yejoon, Lamon and Minjae.

"The younger ones can't really be out past this time so much. So they stayed in, but here we have a housewarming gift." Jaehyun said handing me a box.

"Aw thank you but you shouldn't have." I said slightly touched that he'd get a gift. Unwrapping it I found a beautiful little music box. I cracked the little dial thing and a soft version of Snowfall was heard.

"Ah I hope you like it. I saw it and it reminded me of you." He said bashful, turning his head away but I could see a slight blush on his cheeks. It's adorable. The music box was a pale green, and a cute tinkerbell looking fairy in it.

"I love it thank you." Before I really noticed what I was doing I had reached up to give him a hug. It's a force of habit I always did it to Lishi. He hugged me back and after a few seconds we separated.

We had all gathered around the living room coffee table which was huge enough to have all of us around sitting relatively comfortably. Lishi and I had brought out the food and drinks and we'd all dug in immediately.

"Careful there that's really spicy." I said amused whilst warning Lamon who had taken a giant ladle from spicy biryani onto his plate. Of course however he did not heed my advice and took a heaping spoonful into his mouth.

I saw him turn as red as a valentines heart, and he jumped up screeching about how his mouth was burning much to our entertainment. He finally managed to calm down after a glass of milk to cool his taste buds.

"Holy shit thats spicy!" He cursed chugging his milk. Only Minho, Lishi and I took the spicy one whilst the others took the milder version. I could hear audible encouraging noises as they ate.

"Jaehyun you should marry our noona Rae here so we can have her around all the time!" Jaehyun and I started choking on our food as we heard Daehyun talk. Jesus he shouldn't surprise people like that.

Taking a sip of my strawberry slush drinks I managed to compose myself enough to glare at Daehyun. Lishi was cackling from her spot across from me. Glad to see she's taking enjoyment from this.

"Don't joke around like that!" Jaehyun said visibly annoyed.

"At least don't make people choke on their food my goodness." I added on.

"Why don't you think Rae is pretty? She's really cute you know!" Lamon said poking my cheek, so I swatted away his hand. He pretended to be offended and held his hand to his chest dramatically.

"Of course she's beautiful but don't make her uncomfortable guys!" He said sternly scolding them.

My eyebrows raised at his words, he thinks I'm beautiful. I could feel my cheeks heating up and I thanked every god out there I couldn't blush as I took another sip of my drink to cool myself down.

Lishi however being the eagle eyed person shes is caught wind of my face and looked amused. Oh really she wants to play this game now. Two can play at that game.

"Ah Minho you look like you work out a lot don't you? Hey Lishi doesn't he look fit?" I made my words sound like a random offhand comment but Lishi narrowed her eyes straight away. We knew back in the UK fit also meant the guy was attractive, but these guys didn't know that.

"Oh he and Minjae hyung spend hours in the gym sometimes. They're both very fit." I giggled slightly at Daehyun's words but covered it with a cough. Lishi glared at me but I could see she wasn't too mad. Friendship, when you get back at each other in the funniest ways possible.

Everyone had started socialising amongst themselves and soon after Seohyun brought out the soju for everyone. Everyone except Minho and Lishi took some. I refused at first because I didn't test to make a fool of myself but then I realised I was home so I could let loose a little. One bottle of soju that's it, nothing else. Minho, Lishi and Yejoon had gotten into a small debate over a tv show they were watching. Whilst Seohyun made herself scarce after claiming she was tired. Daehyun and Minjae decided to go for more of the food- and Daehyun wanted to ask Lishi for the recipe.

I decided after feeling my cheeks flush and my temperature rising to step out onto the small balcony in my room. We did rock papers scissors early to so who's getting which room. Lishi got the biggest space, I get the one with a balcony and Seohyun gets the one with a toilet. I loved the little balcony it was so cute. I had sat down for a second just enjoying the cool air the night had given me before a voice had shaken me out of my trance like state.

"Oh are you okay?" It made me jump at first before I turned to see Jaehyun's slightly concerned face. I gestured for him to sit.

"Mhm yeah I felt a little warm so I wanted to sit and feel the cool night. Join me there's plenty of space." I invited him moving over slightly so he's have more space. I had taken off my hoodie a while ago so I was left in my tank top that had the words "SLEEP" in white lettering on the black tank.

"Ah I really shouldn't.... alright then." He seemed to have made up his mind and sat next to me. It was quiet for a moment and I just enjoyed the sounds of the city.

"Have you ever felt like a piece of you is missing?" I blurted out without thinking. Ah crap I really shouldn't talk so much. He turned to look at me with a complicated expression.

"I guess you could say I did and I never realised it. Before I found music I was living the average life any teen could have. But then I found I loved music and felt like I was more whole."

"Most of my life is a mystery, I have amnesia from trauma. God knows what happened but my life began at 14. I don't feel any regret for how I turned out I'm glad to be here but sometimes I wonder who I was before." I said.

I always spoke to Lishi about these things but I've never told anyone else, not even Seohyun. Something about him was so warm and welcoming in this moment. It was like I could tell him everything.

"Hey. One day you might find your old self, I just hope you won't lose your current one." He said grabbing my hand. His encouraging words made me smile.

"One day...." I said firmly squeezing his hand. I had scooted closer and laid my head in his shoulder.

"You know you're a pretty comfortable guy." I mentioned making him snort with laughter.

"I'm glad my duties as a human body pillow are up to your standards." His slightly sarcastic amused tone made me snort too. Very ladylike I know.

We had looked out at the stars and the streets below for a few more minutes. Our conversation had shifted into looking at the constellations. He seemed to get a sparkle in his eyes when he looked at the night sky as if his eyes had become stars themselves.

"Your eyes are beautiful." I had sat up and looked into his eyes before I had commented. They really were. Without his usual contacts they shone different shades of brown, from rich dark chocolaty tones to soft bright hazel.

"You must be confused, because your eyes are stunning." He spoke softly, so softly it was almost a whisper whilst looking back at me.

I don't know if it was some of the soju we were drinking, or being under the stars making some kind of fated moment but I couldn't help myself. In the moment I had taken his chin in my hand and pulled his face gently closer, capturing his lips with mine. He has responded earnestly kissing me back. Our lips had melded together and there was no parting unless it was for air and even then breathing seemed to be such a inconvenient thing. My lips seemed to crave his. I had moved even closer and my hands had planted themselves firmly on his shoulders. His hands had migrated south to my lower back back and seemed to have been intent on travelling lower. We finally broke apart after what seemed like an eternity and I don't know what has possessed me but courage seemed to be flowing through my veins because I had stood up and headed to my door, firmly locking it. As soon as I had an arm as snakes around my waist and turned me around so I was greeted by Jaehyun's face for a split second before his mouth descended into mine once more.

In our haste I had let him pull my shirt over my head, similarly doing the same to him. And my word his body was... perfect. His skin had a glow, as if what I was touching wasn't real. He wasn't overly defined but he still held definition, in his six pack abs that I traced with my fingers. I had lightly traced my way up his body before his lips met my neck and all thoughts washed away. The next thing I knew I felt my back softly hitting my bed and Jaehyun climb on top. All clothing was now a nuisance and were removed so fast they were sent flying across the room.

And that night we had connected together in ways I never knew....