Messy life

Austin called grandma while following Saanvi's car "What the hell is going on? Why is she leaving me?"

"Calm down Austin, she just wants to spend time with me"

"Spend time with you? Why? Why is she leaving me then? I could have accompanied her if she wants to" he was really anxious and he added, "And what is the meaning of giving up on me?"

"She was just acting, she wants to confirm you love her a lot" granny spilled the beans looking at how anxious he was.

"Acting? So she knew I love her"

Granny said with a little guilt "I am the one who showed the video"

"But why" he was totally confused which side she was taking

"I can't see her crying so I showed her and gave an idea to act like giving up on you"

"Then why are you helping me now?"

"I can't see you worrying about losing her" and she added "Don't tell her I spilled out"

Listening to her his mind was at ease and Austin laughed thinking how she has a wobble tongue. This granny can't be serious at least for once, let me see what my firefly up to.

Austin how far are you going to follow me, after you announce to everyone I am your wife they may think I climbed up the ladder to get Mrs. Lee's position, yes, I really climbed up the ladder but not to get rich to rule the world, I climbed up to your heart; I want your unconditional love which I never received.

Let me tell you, everyone, maybe the author has forgotten to mention some things about me. Although we three are girls in my family they don't like girls much, my mom and dad love girls but my paternal family started to mock my mom because we are girls.

The moment I was born my dad's sisters is started mocking my mom saying 'You are not good enough to my brother' they made my dad sleep with other women which made my mom hate me more for being a girl. Not only my relatives, most of the Indian's hate to bring up a girl. I don't know why the hell they all think that way.

I am not blaming my mom it's just my fate, my younger sister was very beautiful which made my mom love Sana, my dad always loves my elder sister I was stuck in between my sisters. I didn't get my mom's love or my dad's love.

I wished for my parent's love which I never received, I worked so hard to gain their love I used to pass in every subject thinking they will be proud of me when I am at school, I am just a fool before.

I always used to smile and do naughty things to forget my sorrows when I am with my friends, but at the end of the day, reality always hit me.

I used to cry at night under my blanket and in the bathroom while taking shower why my parents hate me, is it really my fault for not being beautiful like my younger sister? Or is it really my fault for saying the wrong thing wrong which my elder sister never did?

I am not saying, my parents, show partiality. My mom never thought me how to do chores she can't see me if I suffer a bit and my dad always gave me the best among us but what I need was just their love.

In my point of view if parents can't give their children equal love they shouldn't have to give birth in the first place.

I am a girl who is striving for love which made me choose the wrong person. I am not saying Bacon was totally a bad guy he was just a domineering person and can't see if I say he was wrong.

Everyone used to think I am so domineering among us but the reality is the opposite. I am a girl who doesn't like to dress up myself as a doll I don't think so it's a crime, Bacon knows it very well I don't like to apply makeup or going to the parlor as others do.

When we started our relation he used to respect my thoughts but later he started mocking me looking at my makeup-less face. I just want to ask you guys, is it really a crime? Did I really commit a crime by not wearing makeup to my face? After a year he started to beat me insult me.

If your partner hates you for being yourself trust me just break your relation or else you won't be able to live happily.

I don't know what to do with my fu***ing life except to cry silently. I tried numerous times to take my life but the desire to meet someone who loves me the way I am made me alive till now.