CHAPTER 21: I THINK... I AM PREGNANT

CADENCE P.O.V

Now it is the time to know what's inside it. As I picked up the folding paper on my table. I opened it up and read what written on it. I did not realize a liquid form travelled down my cheek. It came from my eyes that I ignore the flowing. I thought Jaron was downstairs in the kitchen cooking something for us as he used to.

I sobbed as I sat on the floor holding his letter. Therefore, this was it without saying good-bye to her in person. Then I saw something on my ankle it was a gold butterfly ankle bracelet.

'Why I haven't notice it when I was taking a shower? Stupid Cadence, you were thinking about the letter the whole time in the bathroom.'

I cried aloud.

It took me some time before I got up. After fixing my shallow eyes from crying. I go downstairs to the kitchen. I saw the dining table. There are some cooked foods on it. I started crying again knowing that he still doing it for me.

"Stupid Jaron." I murmured.

I know that we need to do this because it is not yet the time for something beyond. College is something we look forward.

Deep in my heart, I know I love him and he will always be my first. I began eating the foods he prepared for me. I know I need to overcome missing him. I hate him for not saying goodbye to me. I hate him for not waiting me awake. I hate him because he did not even tell anything. I hate me for loving him. I hate me because I know inside me if he will tell me in person, I could not control myself like at this moment. It is better he did this way than parted each other's with heavy heart.

Fast forward the days before I knew it, we were living in the apartment for college. We rented the one Clare cousin's friend used to live. It was nice place and very convenient to all. The apartment has three bedrooms and it fits perfectly for us.

A few blocks from university and very accessible for job I works. I applied at the Coffee Shop in C branch with recommendation of my previous branch in my hometown. They accepted me without interview.

It has been three months since we left our hometown and classes started. I worked four hours every day that will not conflict with my studies. I am taking up tourism and management too.

It was hard at first about the day Jaron left without saying goodbye to me in person. But in the other side I keep telling myself that was the best thing he did. It is a good thing that I got my job right away as soon as we moved in C City. It lessens the pain and bereavement in my heart. Clare and Donna never asked more about me regarding with Jaron.

I know they tried to comfort me in every way they could of not mentioning about him for three months now. But I still think about him whenever I am alone. I did not expect that would be the big impact in my life.

Meeting him was just unplanned and it never been unexpectedly on my part to fall in love with him either.

I go to school in the morning and working the whole afternoon. I usually go home around six in the evening if I do not have overtime. It was just walking distance in school and even in work.

I got home from my work when I felt dizzy as soon as I enter my bedroom. I paused for a while thinking maybe I was just hungry since the Coffee Shop was very busy this day.

I went to the kitchen and opened the refrigerator door to see what the ingredients we have left. I decided to make chicken congee with fried tofu.

It did not take too long to cook. I dig in as soon as it cooked and I am starving already. I seem in a hurry to eat like I was not eaten for days.

Not long ago the front door open, Clare, and Donna just stepped in.

"Hey girl, what are you eating?" Donna asked as she and Clare walks towards me.

"I just cooked congee with fried tofu. I do not have time to cook since I am so hungry." I responded while I saw Clare some plastic in her hand. "What you have in your hand?" I asked.

"Oh, this one." She said raising the plastic. "Sanitary napkins, I bought it early since I do not have stocks in my cabinet and I will have my menstruation two days from now." She said grinning. I suddenly stood up that Donna and Clare startled.

"Whaat? What!" Donna asked with concern as I rushed to my room.

They followed me as I get my planner and turned the previous pages then I stopped flipping. I covered my mouth and I sat down on my bed.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Clare asked worriedly.

I looked at them nervously. They were waiting for me to talk then I closed my eyes for a minute before telling them.

"I think… I think…I am pregnant." I said nervously looking at them.

"Are you sure?" Donna asked. They were both hugging me. I nodded.

"I haven't got my period since that month in our graduation." I answered.

"I thought you were in pills." Clare said.

"It slipped in my mind after what happen during that time." I bite my lips. "It was actually not in my mind at all. I was like a walking dead. All I want is to get busy for not thinking about him." I sobbed.

"Sshh! It's okay Cad. We will figure this out and we will always here for you." They wiped my tears and comforted me. I know I am not alone. I always have them.