Lovelorn

Fuck. My heart started to beat out of my chest. I stared at them for five seconds until I turned around and walked away as if I had seen nothing.

I met up with Jun near the bus stop where we usually meet.

"Hey" he hugged me.

"Hi"

"What's wrong? You seem weird."

"Huh? Really?"

"Yeah"

"Well I saw something I shouldn't have."

"And what was that something?"

"Shinhye and Jinyoung making out" I smiled.

"See. I told you he was a player" he said.

"Jun- What made you say he was a player?"

"I heard from someone that he was."

"Who is that someone?"

"Why does it matter?"

"Because I need to know. Tell me-"

"Yuna-"

"Just say it-"

"I like you-". My heart almost stopped.

"Tell me you're kidding me-" my eyes teared up.

"I'm not. I'm sorry- I lied" he sighed. I remembered the time when Nana and Jinyoung were hanging out and I realized that Jun was the one who told me that the both of them were on a date.

"Why- did you have to be- so cheap?" I started to cry.

"But Nana going out on a date with him could be true. Yuna-"

I turned around and left him, walking back to my room. I walked into the building, still crying and slipped in the room key. My eyes were burning with tears when the key got stuck in the lock.

"Fuck-" I cursed, kicking my room door. My weak legs pulled me down to the ground. I sat there covering my face which was streaming with tears. I hadn't wept that much ever since almost a year ago, when I went through depression. If my life is this way, I guess it's just god asking me to die. I tried to slip in the key once again but the lock broke. I'm really screwed tonight. God, just have some mercy on me.

I was trying to not to cry too loud, because Sakura was just in the room nearby. I sat there on the floor, rubbing my eyes, not knowing what to do.

Someone behind me, carried my body up after slipping his arm around my waist without any notice, and slipped the room key which was on the floor into his pocket

"Jesus- you really need help when you're alone." he muttered. Jinyoung carried me and walked through the hallway. "You couldn't have called Sakura?"

"Why are you here-" I wheezed. " instead of making out with your girlfriend?" I cried more, while he was carrying me bridal style.

"Well, it's because I love you more than anyone in this world- even if you don't. I came here to see you." He carried me to his house and I wept all the way.

"Yunaa stop crying." he said placing me on his bed. I started to cry more. "I mean it" he stared at me.

"Fucking Christ- what happened to make you cry this much?" he pulled me into a hug, rubbing my head with his hand. I calmed down, after pouring out all the tears I had onto his shirt.

"I-Im sor-ry" I sniffed.

"It's fine" he pulled me in closer.

"Y-ou still have a girlfriend-"

"I broke up with her-"

"Wh- why?"

"Because I love you-" he repeated again. "Yuna darling- did you eat?"

I shook my head slowly, confused as to why he still calls me darling after what happened. "I'll go buy something for you." He stood up about to leave. My eyes teared up again.

"D-Don't go. I'll come too-"

"Fuck" he cursed. "I won't go- I'll order home delivery." He picked up his phone, when I flopped onto the bed and asked me what I wanted.

"Anything" I said quietly.

"Huh?" he couldn't hear it.

"Anything.."

"Okay."

He came to me and gave a gentle kiss on my head.

"You're really cute when you're emotional you know. You're too irresistible and adorable. I might've gotten mad at you this morning but seriously, temper took over me, when we talked about Jun. Forgive me?-"

"Mm" I nodded, closing my eyes.

"Yuna- Don't go to sleep now. You have to eat."

"I don't have to"

"Yes, you do"

"I don't"

"Yuna darling—".

Jinyoung's POV

Yuna didn't reply. I looked over at her, and she had been sound asleep. How can a person even love a girl this much? I couldn't help but kiss her lips softly after looking at her sleeping so vulnerable, and innocent. I kissed her one more time on her forehead after looking at her sleeping face. Jeez. She's too cute.

The first time I met her, I thought she was beautiful. Too beautiful for this world. When I forced my desire on her when we were at the train station. Damn, she took her annoyance out on me., I feel like falling in love with her all over again. And now, she has shown me another side of her. The emotional side of her. She broke my heart. But I couldn't help but notice how adorable she was when she was emotional. How flustered she becomes, when I call her 'darling', I want to wake up her and make her look at me with those big brown gorgeous eyes looking up at me with every possible hint of innocence.

I thought that forcing her might make her think of me. It might fill her mind full of thoughts about me. I hoped that she might be irked by my presence. I feel like a jerk for that, now.

She still hadn't confessed about her love to me. But I know she loves me. I know she'll always hug me back when I hug her. I know she'll kiss me back when I do. I knew that the reason she cried was because Jun confessed to her. I knew Jun spun up a stupid lie because he didn't want her to like me. From the moment I saw him, I knew he wanted her. It pissed me off. She looked at him as a best friend and it was how he treated her. Not that he annoyed me even if he hadn't lied to her.

I called and asked the delivery man not to ring the bell, because it would wake Yuna up. He knocked the door and delivered the food. I placed the food in the fridge and went back into my room. I was really tired. But I couldn't sleep. It was because of Yuna. I spent the whole time looking at her. And went to sleep only at 3 am.

If only she was mine. If only I could show her off to every guy in this world. If only she knew how much she meant to me. If only she says the words 'I love you' to me. She changed my life. She changed me.

Yuna's POV

I woke up the next morning with Jinyoung asleep beside me. It was 10 am. I slept for so long?! My stomach grumbled. I looked over at Jinyoung who looked tired. I decided to let him sleep. My phone rang loud. Fuuck. I jumped over at the phone but it was too late. Jinyoung already woke up. The phone call was from Sakura. I found two messages from my friend back in my country.

"Go back to sleep-" I said, with a pitiful look, cutting the call.

"It's ok" he smiled.

"You look tired."

He laughed. "You have no idea".

"Huh?"

"Its nothing. You really slept when I had asked you not to." He frowned.

"I- sorry. I was too tired from the- uh- crying."

"It's alright."

"Did you eat yesterday?" I questioned.

"Nope."

"You're kidding" I got up and walked outside, with him following behind me. I opened the refrigerator and heated the food he had ordered the day before.

"Are you okay now?"

"Mhm"

"Sure?". I nodded once again.