Chapter 3

Jake's POV

Jake: why are you so curious about it ?

Lily: nothing, I just want to know you.. because it's hard to find a good guy like you, you know ?

Jake: okay fine..

so this is how I got my that nightmare...

Jake's Past

When I was 5 years old, my mom left the country to work as an OFW, so there's only 3 of us left in the house, me, my sister and my dad.

Everyday was just like an ordinary day, except for the part that my mom is in the another country.. most of the time, me and my sister spend our days by playing outside with our friends.. but one day..

Jake: I need to ask dad about money for my books, school is started already yesterday. Mom said she already transfer the money. Dad was supposed to be here somewhere.. ah! saw him.

(at that time.. I saw him with another woman, I thought she and my dad was just talking, smiling at each other, eye to eye contact.. but I didn't know it was more than that.)

Dad! I need money for books, school started already and mom said she already transfer the money last month.

Dad: I know, I'll give it to you later.

Jake: you already said that two weeks ago. TWICE!!

Dad: IF I SAID I'M GOING TO GIVE IT TO YOU LATE I WILL!!.

Jake: (I was so scared, all I was able to do was to look down and go back home then after I got home tears just keeps falling down.)

*1 month later*

Jake: he never did give me the money and I had to copy and answer the questions in my notebook. If I ever saw where he is keeping the money I would definitely take it to buy my books.

Dad: ahh.. that was tiresome I thought it would take a little bit longer, I'm glad they give up. It's my win today so I better hide the money.

Jake: (I saw my dad keep the money from the drawer, behind his clothes, I'll just wait for him to get out to get the money)

It didn't took a while before he gets out, so I immediately open the drawer to take the money

*door creaks open*

Dad: so you know how to steal now, huh ?

Jake: I'm not, I'm just taking the money to buy the books

Dad: wait right you bastard, just you wait.

Jake: crap crap crap, I didn't know things would be like this. Dad is so furious right now, I'm just going to take the money back.

Dad: YOU COME OVER HERE.

Jake: WHY ARE YOU HOLDING A KNIFE!?? waaah (what's going to happen, he scares me, mom, sister, help me! please, I need you guys.)

Dad: I SAID COME OVER HERE!! ARE YOU DEAF?? *pulls Jake's hands*

Jake: NO NO NO IT WAS JUST FOR THE BOOKS!! PLEASE LET ME GO!!

Dad: THIS IS GOING TO HAPPEN AGAIN IF YOU DON'T TAKE YOUR PUNISHMENT!!

Jake: IT WON'T, PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU, I WON'T DO IT AGAIN!

(it happens so fast.. I didn't know what happened, the knife just swings in front of me.. there was blood splattering around.. is that my blood ? My vision is getting blurry.. no.. everything is becoming dark.. am I going to pass out ?) *thugg*

Jake: (no.. no.. please.. NO NO NO PLEASE I WON'T DO IT AGAIN PLEASE I PROMISE AAHHHH!!!!) haa.. haa... *panting* what.. what happened ? was it a dream ? why my hand hurts ? AHHHHH!!

Dad: you are finally awake.

Jake: GET AWAY FROM ME!! GO AWAY!!

Dad: what did you say ? WHAT DID YOU SAY !? WHAT ? ARE YOU MY BOSS NOW HUH ? MOTHERFUCKER, I DIDN'T TAUGHT YOU TO BE A THIEF. IF YOU EVER DO THAT AGAIN, I'M GOING TO TAKE YOUR WHOLE ARM, UNDERSTAND?

Jake: *hic *hic ...

Dad: ANSWER GODDAMN IT!!

Jake: I know... (please just go..)

Dad: TELL THIS TO ANYONE AND I'M GONNA KILL YOU. Take a bath and go to school.

Jake: ... (I don't want to go to.. but it's better than here.. I don't want to be here anymore)

(ever since that day, I wear jacket, whatever the weather may be, hot or cold, it doesn't matter.. things also change.. I.. I barely talk to anyone.. all I do was to sit in corner of the class and eat alone in the toilet.. I don't hang around with my friends or my sister, I turned down everyone and push them away.

I started feeling that everyone is talking about me or laughing at me, so I always play a loud music where ever I am.

This past few months has been so lonely.. it's always just me and me alone.. I also found my favorite spot. It's deep within woods.. I always go there after school, sometimes I won't go to school and just spend the day there.. there I would scream till I get tired.. then after that.. tears will just fall down my eyes..)

I was on my way home, when something caught my eyes.. a pair of gloves.. it cost thirty pesos and luckily I have enough money so I bought it. It was a gift for myself.. it was my birthday last week and no one remembered.. but it's not a big deal.

I put my hands out from the pocket of my jacket to wear it but.. ( PLEASE STOP !! PLEASE I WON'T DO IT AGAIN, PLEASE I PROMISE AHHHHH!!!) haa.. haa.. (I always remember what happened that day, that horrifying day, everytime I see my left hand, I lost my strength and I just fell down.. leaving me kneeling at the ground.. I.. I couldn't move, feel anything nor hear a thing.. but a girl went to me and ask.)

girl: are you okay ? hey ! are you deaf ? what happened ? HEY!! *SLAPS!!*

Jake: Ah!! sorry.. sorry..

girl: oh you are missing a finger.. listen I don't know what happen but I could fix that.

Jake: you can bring my finger back ? that's impossible.

girl: relax I have an idea, give me your gloves and wait for me here.

Jake: (I don't know what is she doing but I'm just waiting for her outside their store)

girl: tadahh!! hear let me put it on for you!

Jake: ah *closes his eyes*

girl: open your eyes!

Jake: ah... *tears falling down his eyes* th-thank you.. (she filled my pinky slot with a cotton, this doesn't scare me one bit, it's perfect)

girl: you have to pay me for that hehe.

Jake: oh right, I forgot, how much is it ?

girl: I don't need money.

Jake: then how could I pay you ?

girl: your name.. what is it ?

Jake: my name is Jake.

girl: then I'll take that as a payment.. let's be friends !

Jake: okay hahaha (it's been a while since I smile, I thought I forgot how to do that.)

girl: tomorrow is my birthday so you better come. I'll wait for you here, okay ?

Jake: got it, if I got here first, I'll wait for you.