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"Sweetheart" Julian chat pop up to her phone screen.

"Why aren't you looking for me?"

"So heartless."

"Do you know what Mae told me?"

"Fine."

After his five messages with their conversation chat failed to get any response from her even she was mark online, he stop sending more.

But her phone rang.

'When the sun shines, we shine together

Told you I'll be here forever

Said I'll always be your friend

Took an oath that I'm a stick it out 'til the end

Now that it's raining more than ever

Know that we still have each other

You can stand under my umbrella

You can stand under my umbrella, ella, ella, eh, eh, eh'

Her phone rang and it was Julian who was calling her but she got annoyed. Jeya remove her simcard and break it. She will just buy a new one again. She block him on her social media and this time, she would not give her contact number to Kim and Mae, she will just chat them so that no one will give her number to him when he pleaded for it to them.

It was raining that day and the umbrella song by Rihanna make her recall all the happy moments she had in school with Jason.

The summer ended and Rainy days approaches. The school enrolment will start tomorrow and it was her mother who will go as usual with her. She will only wait for her next section, home room classroom, and schedules. It didn't take long when her mother return and gave them to her.

"You attend your class tomorrow first without notebooks pens papers and bag for I couldn't afford to buy yesterday." Her mother said while walking. She was smiling like there is nothing wrong. She couldn't buy yesterday because she already spent their budget for school supplies. She lost in gambling yesterday and she can't let her father know or they'll fight each other again. "After all, All you gonna do tomorrow is just introducing yourself to your teachers and classmates." Smiling to her daughter who seem expressionless. They are walking side by side with each other.

"...." Jeya look away. She didn't mind now.

They once had everything before. Once had cars and land titles. Once had everything but now they had to work hard for anything.

She blame her mother's gambling before but after knowing that his father was also a drunkard she doesn't know who to blame anymore. She only focus on her studies and her friend Jason let her forget her family problems whenever she is with him. He was her light in the dark but this light suddenly left her behind and what worst is she didn't know the real value of this light not until he passed away. She started blaming herself for being useless, she got depressed and became emotional, she started wearing strange before, long bangs hair, hi cut converse shoes, black shirt, black flat earrings, black string bracelets and over piercings. She became an Emo and because her body figure was captivating, many punks and gothic befriended her.

One school day, she waited in the junior high level corridor where the girls before recruited her to join their gang.

She joined them but she only met their Original Gangsta or their founder. Their OG accepted her even without any initiations. He just made her dance a funny moves but when she danced it, It wasn't funny. But their OG accepted her so the few members who knows can't do anything but welcome her with their own style handshakes.

Only a few knows so when the rest bump into her they didn't greet her, she didn't mind it anyway. She only join them just to not let her recruiter down.

Some of the few intentionally didn't introduce her or didn't inform the others to greet her. They dispise her because of being favored by their OG.

Jeya began to slowly change her emotionally motivated outfits. She began to like red colors. This summer she only gets to meet the West Side Red Gang, once, just to kill the time. And still, she didn't met them all.

Now this time, she would buy color red things.

Her empty heart is filled with nothing but boring interest. This thinking will keep her thoughts of something than thinking of commiting a suicide. Her depression was suppress but was left in emptiness.

No matter what decisions her parents do. She didn't mind. She was already numb with her heart and this is good for her. They can't hurt her anymore.

"Don't give me that attitude. If only your father give me more budget for you then there is no problem at all." her mother was irritated with her speechlessness, if it was before she would nag her but now she was often silent and it kills her mind. She doesn't want to be stressed out thinking what was her daughter problems because she have hers that she was escaping.

"I will not go to school tomorrow, you could just give the money and I will buy them myself, no need to trouble you." Jeya answered.

Her mother didn't know what to do with her attitude now. She can't guess and she doesn't want to. "Okay" she just gave her the money he borrowed from her cards playmate."Take care of yourself!" she then left her happily. This is her opportunity to gamble again before going home.

Jeya look at the piece of paper her mother gave her and saw her section. It was second to the lowest rank. Section 3-N with forty students and eigth in the morning to five on the afternoon class.

S University consist of private and public class. The owner is the late President of S country so he build a public school with good qualities of schooling and at the same time has a private with good securities. Some think it was great to have the rich and poor status

of students be with one school, Some think it was a discriminating school. But despite the controversy, this is the great and famous school in the whole S country.

There are separated buildings for private students and public students. The only chances of meeting the other side is when there is a school activities like competition between the aces of private and the aces of public.

There are also clubs they can join or be invited like English Club, Swimming Club, Badminton Club, Basketball Club and Music and Art Club.