I find my self in a trance of mixed emotions.
I try to imagine if there is hope but only thing I can think of is just dying.
This is a thing when I want to die but can't knowing how this is.
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My Family is my Chains
My Heart is my Lock
My Life is never mine to control.
I will never seek answer
I will always stay chained
I shall hold still in the passage of time alone
Myself departs alone
Everyone leaves me
I am in despair before my own will torturing my soul.