I know and understand

"If he would… maybe yeah…"

"I don't believe this! I really don't,"

"J.R please,"

"Isn't Ironic? People normally ignore those who adore them and adore those who ignore them, hurt those who love them dearly and love those who hurt them." These words brought tears in her eyes.

"Now I understand why you don't have a girlfriend."

"You understand?" she came to me walking slowly.

"I suppose what you have for me must be real and strong… you…" she placed her pointing finger on my chest and said."… you are one handsome, cute, guy, you are sexy any girl would love to date you." she started flirting, not that I was complaining, I liked it

"I don't want to date, I want a relationship with you!" tell it to her face. She moved both her fingers the pointing finger and middle finger moved slowly, from my chest to my chin, she lifted my chin and I looked at her. I know I'm a shy guy, I couldn't summon up the courage that I had before, just now that she had to touch me. Her soft touches sent shivers in my body. Goosebumps were all over my body.

"And who do you want to be on a relationship with?" I did not waste any time I said it to her face again, though I was shy.

"I want you!" I spoke with my lowered voice.

She moved her head aside, her hand rubbed my cheek; I knew she wanted to taste this lips again. Slowly our heads were getting close to each other, her eyes showed so much desire as much as I wanted her. We shared another passionate kiss, not a French kiss, And she held back, and move just an inch from me and said.

"This kiss is to remove last night's, kiss I'm sure you are having a hangover."

As she tried to leave I grabbed her fast and she turned and faced me, she panthed heavily, and I too breathed so heavily, I knew she was still hurting, but I wanted to kiss her one more time and she'll decide whether she takes me in or not. We both wanted it, we both wanted to share another kiss as eyes foretold everything.

We kissed that French kiss as our tongues enjoyed each other's comforts, I could feel her melting in my embrace, all I wanted was to be with her, love her for as long as I could breathe. We kissed for a long time, I could feel my lips were getting numb, but then the fire burning inside of me, the burning love I have for her I couldn't stop. I had to deepen the kiss. Her arms were wrapped around my neck, she kept on caressing me. I could feel my whole body burning with desire for her, but before we do something inappropriate, I decided to break the kiss. I refrained myself from her lips, her eye's were still closed, her lips were now swollen, I admired her beauty in my embrace as I traced her lips with my finger. She then opened her eyes, she looked at me as with her glittering eyes.

"You are so beautiful Lindy" that woke her from her daze I then hugged her, with my eyes closed, and then gazed through her beautiful eyes.

"I love you; I know I won't make you to love me!" I tightened the hug, I wanted to feel her, feel her heartbeat, beating next to mine.

"J.R!" she said.

"Please take your time, I know you're still hurting but I'll wait!" I rubbed her cheek with the back of my hand. Suddenly there was noise from the background we both turned around in unison.

Hands clapping, from the background,

"I don't know about you man, but I wouldn't wait that long, after I've waited for so long… I wouldn't have the energy." said Trevor whilst folding his arms leaning towards the door frame.

"Neither, do I Mon…" agreed Musa.

"Eavesdropping on other peoples conversations is not alright, don't you guys know that?"

"Um… yeah… we do." replied Musa.

"No! I don't!" said Trevor "All I know is, that I'm a good friend… I work when the spirit guides me and work at the time it has ordered." he bragged.

"I have to go… I'll call you." said Lindy.

"No please, don't leave." they both pleaded.

"My Mon… here was enjoying to be with you, please don't leave because of us." pleaded Trevor.

"Yeah … yeah … we are the ones who have to go… let's go Trevor."

"But I haven't …" Musa murmured on her lips "haven't said everything yet"

"Let's go…" he dragged him out of the room.

"By the way though, you guys make a good and cute couple" Trevore admired. Lindy did not have anywhere to hide from these two, their presence made her feel somehow. she felt really embarrassed to even look at them

She never wanted to leave, she was enjoying my company. I was her pillar of strength; she left home and came to me because she wanted to talk to me as a friend. We didn't quite have a talk but we ended up blowing kisses and busy smiling at each other. Rather than seating holding each other's hands, I thought it was best that we resume on our painting lessons.

"J.R … its not healthy for me to move from another relationship and jump to the next one now."

"I know, I wouldn't have loved it either, I just wanted to release what has been on my chest." I had to delude her again as if I was fine with the whole situation but I wasn't.

"I don't want you to be my rebound, its not healthy."

"I know and understand… that's why I said take your time."

"Yeah... and it wouldn't look appropriate."

"I understand loud and clear … relationships that normally start of like you and I almost did, don't usually last." I had to assure her. She was panicking for no reason. Perhaps she was panicking for the better. Who knows maybe if we started things. We would keep on quarreling with each other.

Our relationship as friends never ended but it grew even more, I felt so much relieved after I have told her how much I felt about her. We would call each other more often, checking on each other every now and then. The only way to a women's heart and to win her over is to call her more often but not be a nuisance, even if she were to be in a relationship with some other guy. The time and attention you giving her totally melts her heart. Some men don't tend to listen to their women, and when some guy comes and gives her and ear, whatever good deeds you did towards her they get erased.

Women don't forget how well you have treated them and also good, they don't count how many times you have offended them because they understand that we are all humans and we do mistakes. But we men don't, we count each and every single mistake they do! Which is not healthy in a relationship, why count her sins if she doesn't count yours? Never play with a women's heart it is so precious and also dangerous. Once they hold a grudge against you, you might end up changing women from left to right and might end up having multitudes of ex partners because of the first girl you broke a heart of.

I'm not saying I'm holier or know much about relationships but from what I've learnt and seen so far it is quite a lesson.

We were talking over the phone this one faithful day, may we give all the glory to God. I told her that i was on my way coming to visit her because, its been a while since she last visited me, I wanted to visit her, she paid me a lot of visits and I only visited her twice it wasn't alright. She said its ok I can come over, she gave me the security pin code to unlock the gate. As I was approaching her house, I called and told her that I had forgotten the pin. She asked me where I was, told her that I'm a few blocks away, she said she'd leave the gate open and all I have to do is enter and press the lock button.

Little did she not know that Vusi was at the gate, he knew how the gate operated, as soon as she unlocked it, and probably Vusi's ancestors were with him for that moment. He got in and locked the gate, he went straight to the house and let himself in. she thought it was I entering the house.

"Wow! You are such a racer, where… what are you doing here." she probed Vusi out of terror.

"Hello gorgeous, I missed you… oh you no longer know how to greet your man?"

"Please… leave… you are not welcomed here!"

"But sweet face... you gladly opened the gate for me and you are asking me to leave? That is so embarrassing," he expressed.

"I did not open the gate for you! But for J.R."

"Oh! Is that so?"

"Yes!"

"How sweet, you have moved on, so fast, and with that stupid Radebe brat!"

"For your information we are not dating, his only a friend… I don't even know why am I explaining myself to you ... we are not together anymore."

I tried calling her again; her phone rang and rang and later sends me straight to voice mail. I didn't throw in the towel I gave it a try for the second time, she couldn't answer it, her phone was next to Vusi, and Vusi took her phone and looked at it. I did not know how my number was saved on her contact list. After I had ringed her phone I went to the intercom and tried to buzz my way in. lucky enough she pressed the answering button and opened the gate, Vusi wouldn't let me in, he pushed her away from the answering phone. I listened over the intercom.