disappointment

Disappointment seems like a challenge most days.

I had given up on a lot of people to try and understand me or just be there for me because that's how they were and nothing I could do would change that.

It was a fact. Something that wasn't up for discussion.

Yet I unknowingly expect things only to get disappointed once again.

Is it odd I don't want to give up on people?

Is it odd that I want people to understand me?

I wish the answer would be no, that I shouldn't feel guilty to surround myself with people who I feel like being my true self, not a version of how they wish me to be,

And yet I continue to disappoint myself by not being able to leave these relationships where I continue to not be able to show myself to anyone.