eating

I don't feel like eating a lot of time

Whether it's one meal or three, it varies according to the day

There is no warning or reason for why it happens

Somedays are just worse than others

Somedays i am able to force myself to eat, other days a single bite makes me want to puke my empty stomach

People never seem to understand that

They yell and force me to eat and complain about how irrational i am acting

And the ache in my stomach only increases

While my mind overworks

My hands move as their words increase

I force myself to eat which seems to sting my eyes

And makes my stomach roll on itself

I all of a sudden feel overly insecure about my body, and seem to worry about the weight i didn't care about before

My skin feels itchy like it's not my own body, i want to peel it off and get out of this body i had previously loved

In the end, nothing changes

They still haven't stopped talking

I haven't all of a sudden gained weight or left my body

I am still here with an ache in my stomach and my mind reeling