Kneel to the Late Queen

"So, ano maitutulong ko sa'yo?", kalmadong sabi ni Y.

"Ahh, wala naman. May gusto sana akong tanungin sa'yo. Kaso, 'pag nag-stay mga kuya ko dito, baka makisawsaw, mga epal 'yon e ha-ha-ha"

"Ha-ha-ha"

F*ck. Huwag kang tumawa ng ganyan Y. Nalulusaw ako.

"Ano ba itatanong mo, bata?" dugtong nya.

WHAT THE—

DID.

HE.

JUST.

CALLED.

ME.

BATA?

NooOooOooOooOooOooOooOooOooOooOooOoo.

Porke ba desi-nuwebe na siya at mas matanda lang ng dalawang taon sa akin, ganun na agad? Yup, minor palang ako pero 'di na ako bata. Pero, pwede naman tayong gumawa ng bata if mahilig ka talaga sa bata ehekhek.

"Uhm, may girlfriend ka na ba?", tanong ko.

Nakapagtatakang tumingin lang sya sa akin. Owmayyyy. Masyado ba akong halata?

"Hmm, gf?", aniya.

Ngunit, ngumiti lang sya sa akin, at sa puntong ito, nakasisiguro akong maiihi ako sa kilig. Napakagwapo talaga ng ngiti nya, litaw ang dimples nya na bumabagay sa makinis nyang mukha.

"Meron, bakit?" , dugtong niya.

AT.

TUMIGIL.

ANG.

MUNDO~

"Joke lang ha-ha-ha, bat mo naitanong?", muling dugtong niya.

Phew. Medyo masakit 'yon sa heart besh. Pero gaya ng sabi niya, nagbibiro lang naman daw siya, pero...malay ko bang baka may hinihintay o nililigawan siyang ibang babae na tiyak na 'di hamak na mas maganda at mas gugustuhin niyang makasama at makausap kaysa sa akin. At least, naipakita ko naman siguro na parang wala akong reaksiyon. Ayaw ko kasing nakikita ng isang lalake kung gaano ako ka-obsessed sa kaniya. Dahil once na nagpakita ka ng sign na masyado mo syang mahal, hindi siya mag-aalangan na mambabae ng libo-libo dahil ang isip nya ay kahit na anong mangyari 'di mo siya iiwan. Why do I know this? It is based on my experiences through life. Every guy that I met end up cheating but continue bluffing even if I know exactly what the truth is. Honestly, I don't want to feel any heart ache now, because when it hits you f*ckingly hard, it also hurts f*ckingly hard.

Those things begun to circulate in my cerebrum again and again. Hence, I don't wanna distract Y from my thoughts that's why I told him that the reason why I ask him if he have a girlfriend is because of some random girl from school who did some good stuff for me and I'm returning her kindness in this way because she have a crush on Yandon even though nothing was real about that excuse. I lied to save my self, I lied to protect my heart from receiving bruises again, I lied to protect my brain from thinking plenty of painful thoughts. Because I know, every I love you's turn into I'm sorry. Dalawa lang naman ang posibleng maganap 'pag nag first move ako at umamin: It's either rejection or the relationship won't work out.

For some reason, napangiti din naman ako sa mga araw na iyon dahil sa lakwatsa namin kasama ang mga pinakamamahal kong mga lalake sa mundo. Mga kuya ko at ang future ko. Hehe, enebe.

Doon ko din napagtantong masarap pala talagang kumain at lumamon ng napakadami lalo na kapag libre.

...

Monday. I heard sounds out of nowhere. I try to visualize everything kahit na papikit-pikit ang mga mata ko dahil sa labis na kaantukan. Then, I saw the intense brightness from the window. I figured out the sounds I thought was out of nowhere is just my phone vibrating. I suddenly look at it and saw it's 11 in the morning. Geez, late na naman ako. Kasalanan ito ng alarm! Hmp.

Tumayo ako agad at sinubukang maging si the Flash para humabol man lang sa asignatura naming pinakaiingatan ko dahil spaghetti ang grade ko doon. Pababa ng pababa. Lintek na mathematics yan, pinasasabog utak ko.

"You're late again Ms. Tarazona!" , sigaw ni Madam Panget este Madam Teagan.

"I know ma'am. You don't have to tell the obvious."

"Sit down immediately Ms. Tarazona!"

"Looks like you've eaten a microphone, Mrs. Teagan", my classmates laugh as if there's no tomorrow as I said those sentences while I put my bag down calmly onto my chair then sat like the Queen of all Queens.

"Looking pretty, Ky."

[PLASTIC ALERT]

"You don't have to tell the obvious too, Andy.", I said and winked at her. Isa na naman ito sa bagong pakikibaka sa kahirapang mamuhay ng totoo ng mga plastik kong kaibigan at kaklase dito.

"Ky, I love your nails."

"Love ka ba?", sambit ko.

At eto na naman tayo. Nakakasawa ngang magsungit but I love the way things turned out due to my attitude. Taray sa labas 'tas mahina naman pala talaga. Those words are my weakness. I'm sure every person have their own weaknesses. But who'll spill the beans if there were no beans? I mean, wala naman din akong dapat na ikatakot if may something na mabunyag kung wala naman. I can probably kick them out right away from this school as badly as I want. Pero, 'tong mataray na 'to? Humihina 'to pagdating sa'yo Y. . . . . At takot akong humina. . . . .