I've never told anyone this
Even my closest of friends
But this one
Can never be told
It's embarrassing
It's shameful
It's pathetic
If I let you go why am I still here?
I continue to ask myself what am I trying to find
What am I even looking for
Why can't I let this go
So I made one
To observe covertly
Discretely
I still remain in your life
Indirectly
You just don't know it
And I guess
I don't know it either
I see what you're doing
And I see what she's doing
Is there a correlation?
Why do I love hurting myself?
It's you that I am drawn into
Drawn into the danger
Drawn into the pain
Could I ever get away from you?
Will I ever really go?
Maybe it's me haunting you
Not you
Haunting me
- I can't get away