Episode II: "To Breathe Again"

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M'kay, well...this makes NO sense!?! Biologically, I shouldn't even be CLOSE to this level of concience thought!?! I'm YEARS away from reaching full mental maturity...so...what the FUCK is happening!?!

Could it be...my Soul? Spirit? Something like the Soul was considered make-believe in my past life...but here?...is having a Soul the only 'reasonable' explaination for my current level of clear and focused thinking?...

This...should be the case, yeah...but still! A Soul!? I have a Soul!?

M'kay, well...lets stray from that metaphorical line of thinking, shall we?...So, how does this function? Is my soul being used in place of my biological brain? Will my brain and soul be basically one and the same for the purposes of concience thought?

I'll go with yes for the moment, atleast until shown otherwise...this is something physics isn't able to support!? Is my Soul in like...the 4th dimension?! Does it exist in some pocket dimension?!? The Soul ain't physically tangible...where the FUCK is it?!?

Another thought to contemplate later on, hmm? The current worldly situation is FAR more important...for the moment, atleast. The situation? Being a fetus in Esther's womb...which as far as I can tell, I'm am not going to be the twin of a Canon Mikaelson. Either I will take the place of a Mikaelson that SHOULD exist...or I will be a whole new child. I hope for new child, but that will be know later on...no way of knowing for the moment.

Why I don't know? I didn't specify this to the gender-neutral voice. Same with language, vocal language. I never asked about it and while I have the Knowledge gifted from The Pact, it involved some Eldritch dark-speech looking language. Just thinking about the words makes me SICK!?! Not physically, no...spiritually! My SOUL cramps up on the slightest thoughts of that language...Honestly, its probably not actually Dark...maybe just not meant to be understood by mortal beings...which I still am...

Using that language in The Ritual...well, it's gonna fucking HURT! The Ritual seems like its suppose to take DAYS!?! But, just the slightest thought of it makes me feel like SHIT!

So, Esther's womb...warm, comfortable, somewhat constricting, and slimy as HELL. Ignoring the all encompassing sound of her heartbeat and bloodflow, it is actually not bad...Oh, something else I realised! My body is actually ASLEEP! This whole time, i've been awake through my Spirit, which somehow stays within or attached to my body!

While interesting and makes no sense what-so-ever...still pretty damn cool and extremely useful. Technically, I will always stay awake, or conscience, as far as I can tell. That extra time is gonna be EXTREMELY useful!

More time for MAGIC! Something I shall cherish the moment I am out of Esther. I ain't risking anything while inside this Legendary Witch, too dangerous and may raise some red flags...don't want that, no I don't...

So, I shall wait and contemplate everything with my debatable sanity. Now, Elder Futhark Runes in Magic, I am excited to lear-...FUUUUCK!?!

"AHHHH!"

Am I being born?!? Holy Shit this Fucking SUCKS!!! I feel like everything is gonna be shattered from this pressure! SHIIIIT! STOP SQUEEZING BITCH!?! FUUUUCK!!!

"AHHHH HAAAAAA!!!"

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!

"HAAAAAAAAAAaaaaa..."

Fuuuuuck...the pressure is gone...and now it stinks like SHIT, I feel like SHIT, and its fucking COLD...AS...SHIIIIT! Is it winter or something?! Hey! Who is picking me up?

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What is she saying? Shit! Language barrier!

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Huh? Oh, I'm being handed to someone else? Is it Esther?

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M'kay, well...I understood 'Finn' but I don't think I am Finn, atleast if how she is speaking is any indication...so, I am younger than Finn, who is the second-born child...am I Elijah then?

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I'm not hearing Elijah, so what is happening?...Am I the third-born, one that replaces Elijah or comes before him? 'Eluf'...is she naming me 'Eluf'? Thats...different?

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Thats a male voice? Sooo...Mikael?

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He sounds oddly interested? Freya 'died' from the plague, right? Mikael should be pretty emotionally withdrawn by this point, right?

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I'm being passed around again? I've been trying to look around but everything is blurred...

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What are they saying!?! Fuck! I need to learn this damned language! Fast!

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Another voice? What was it called...midwife? Perhaps some woman in this village...are we in a village?

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Esther said...something? Again! Handing me around again! What was put in my mouth?!? Wait...am I being breast fed!?! Fuck! NO! MUST! RESIST!

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Mikael is laughing?!? How dare he! Can't he see I'm trying to resist this?!

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Does Esther find this amusing?! Does she think this is cute?! Adorable!?! Noooo...

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I can't...breathe!...help...me! Make...it stop! Please!

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